It was a long day, performing at two schools, continually packing and unpacking the truck and then a public performance at a shopping centre in front of a massice crowd. The nerves ran wild, so did Lu's by the way she was holding my hand to the point where all the blood stopped rushing to it.
We are all exhausted, coming back to the hotel I fell asleep on Jai and thats when all the whispers about us start to happen about us, but nothing was going. Why can't a girl and boy just be friends without liking each other?
We all arrive back to the hotel tired, and just wanting to sleep but no it's dinner time, the time of the day I dread the most. To make matters better it is a buffet so people are going to notice when you only put a spoonful on your plate.
We all load into the function room and one by one our tables are called up and of course ours is first, can't wait, and to make me even more exicted is Miss. N is watching me like a hawk. I get around five tiny spoonfuls of salad and thats it I'm done, that will fill me for days I think.
"Ally is that all you're eating "
"You have to eat more, thats nothing"
"You are so fat"
Everyone comments tonight, but it was Lu's comment that hurt the most, I know she was just joking but today I couldn't take any jokes. I just sat there not responding and finishing off what I had put on my plate.
Dessert was next and not getting anything I sat and observed everyone rush like they hadn't seen food in months, not every one at my table got dessert. I asked three of the girls to come to the bathroom with me, but no one wanted to come so I simply went by myself.
When I came out to wash my hands, B was there to my surprise. I thought can I go to the bathroom without people following me for once
"Lu and I are really offeneded with you" B said aggresivley to me
"Why, I simply went to the bathroom"
"You asked everyone else but us if they wanted to come to the bathroom, we are meant to be your bestfriends Ally, but you sure don't treat us like it, What's wrong"
"Nothing's wrong, and you were the only ones not finished your dessert everyone else had"
"Don't stand there and tell me nothings wrong, you are blaintly lying to my face, some bestfriend you are"
I can't take it, I walk away in a rush, I can't take the insults
"You are just plain selfish, you're ruining this whole trip for everyone. You are so childish"
I can't look at B, she is right, I am selfish, I am childish. I should toughen up, I refuse to go back in there. I fell this grab around me.
"What's wrong with you" B said sobbing
"I can't control how I feel, I can't take it any longer but this is how I am going to be. The depression is eating away at me" I breakdown
B hugs me and whispers "I'm going to get Miss.Noble"
"NO!" i plea but it's too late.
