I sit there waiting for them to come out of the function room, thinking of ways I could run back to my room, I was the only one who had the key so I could make them sleep somewhere else.
"What's wrong darlin, you promised me you would try"
"Nothing" I reply trying to shake it off "I'm just overacting, lets go back"
"You aren't fine, you are sitting here with tears streaming down your face and your also staring in the space, so you're not fine and you know that"
Darn Miss.Noble knowing exactly how I feel, she is to good and it sucks, especially when I don't want to talk to B, but she is sitting right next to me waiting for me to talk. I simply don't though thats the problem, I don't want to talk about how I feel, I don't want to be more selfish than I already am being.
"Do you want me to talk? Does Bridgette know what's going on latley?"
I nod my head as I am totally staring into space.
When Miss.Noble is finished saying what she has perfectly said to B, I know the questions are coming. All I want to do is take the shining silver razor to my hips and slice them apart, but I couldn't my comforter is at home waiting for me to come home.
"I am your bestfriend, you can talk to me any time and I will be right there for you, just to listen even. Do you want me to come to one of your counseling session? Lu and I are here for you, you have to let me in even just a little, don't be afraid. I know you are stubborn, and all you do is want to help others, but know it's time to focus on you and you only."
"I love you B" that's all I can say. I just want to go to bed I am so tired and drained shower and bed sounds good and Miss. Noble lets me go so I can get at least one goods night rest before I have to face the entire table tomorrow.
