I dragged the silver, sharp edge across my skin until all I can see it blood dripping down my leg profusely. I decided not to take it because what if the temptation is too big and I give in. What if my two best friends that I'm sharing a room with for five nights finds it, imagine all the questions I would have to answer. No I'm making the right decision in not taking it.
"Ally darling, dinner is ready can you come downstairs we need to talk."
Oh no ! How am I going to hide this! I grab the box of tissues and wipe the blood off my legs. I put my tights on and shove the tissues down there so they stay and then I put on my long flow top.
"What have I done wrong this time dad?" I say sarcastically
I make my way downstairs and sit at the table and wait for a scolding. All I can think about is will they see it, they can't know I have relapsed, they think in getting better.
"Ally you know how your mother and I have been thinking about going away for a while now?"
"Yes dad, where are you going without me this time."
"Well we decided we are going to Singapore, we leave tomorrow as well and get back the day after you get back. See not bad at all."
"We will buy you heaps of thing Ally, we aren't going to forget you."
Of course because all they do is buy my love, they don't show it, they never have and they never will.
"I know mum, I'm cool with it. Have a good time, I'm glad you guys can just go away like that its good. Have a good time." I lie, but it is way better than starting an argument.
Nothing is worse than an argument in this household, they last for days and they go on and on. This family is so dysfunctional and I want out.
