🔸Part Two of Texas Rollercoaster.....
Jaysean got a little southern piece of mind when he was shipped off to Texas. He was sent there to get his act together and straighten out. Little did he know he would meet someone who would teach him to love t...
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"Sir you need to rest. You haven't stopped since this morning" Salia sighed standing over my desk as I continued to type out my report on the computer.
"I'm almost done" I muttered.
"Well your appointment is now so, maybe you should stop and go. I set it up with the business psychologist. He's on the fifth floor" she explained.
"Okay," I muttered as I continued to work.
She sighed loudly before exiting my office. When I heard the door close, I lifted my head slightly. Glancing over to my phone, I checked to see if maybe Jay called or texted. Yesterday I was ignoring him and now all I wanted was to see if he was okay. Messed up, I know.
"Fuck" I groaned turning off my computer. Packing up my stuff, I grabbed my phone. There was no way I could go on like this.
Leaving my office, I headed to the elevator and up to the 5th floor. The whole reason I made this appointment was to get help and understand why I couldn't give the most important man in my life everything he needed. When I came upon the office, I knocked on the door.
"Come in" I heard a deep voice say. I stepped inside and saw a man sitting in a chair with a journal. His head was down so, I was unable to see his face.
"Hello. I'm Leo" I hummed.
"Oh hey. I didn't think you were going to show up" he murmured raising his head. When I saw his face I recognized him. He was the man that had hit on me at the gym.
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"Of course" I sighed smiling because it was just my luck.
"Hi again" he chuckled putting his journal to the side and standing.
"Hey. I never thought I would see you again especially, not here" I muttered running a hand through my hair.
"Yeah. It's quite a surprise. I'm Xavier" he breathed shaking my hand.
"Bet you are regretting the fact you tried to ask me out. Probably dodged a huge bullet since I'm here" I said smirking.
"Nah, I have no regrets or judgments. Please sit" he told me pointing to the sofa. Putting my jacket to the side, I sat down and watched as he followed my actions.
"So, how does this work?" I asked relaxing.
"Tell me why your here" Xavier hummed picking up the journal and his pen.
"I can't say I love you to my boyfriend. I feel it but, I can't say it. Not without feeling like I'm being forced too. Maybe it stems from parental issues. I don't know" I confessed.
"Parental issues?" he murmured.
"My parents went through a divorce. I was in high school. My mom found out my dad was having an affair. It's not like they didn't have problems before but, this was too much. Eventually, my mom divorced him and he left to live with the woman. My sister even went with him, choosing our father over the woman that birthed her. It was a mess" I explained. He nodded and continued writing.
"So your father betrayed your mother. Do you think that plays a part in your commitment issues? He couldn't stay true to the love he had for her and that lessened your faith in love" he stated.
"It played a part but, it can't be the only reason" I whispered looking away.
"Let me ask you this. Is there anyone before Jaysean that you have said I love you too and meant it?" he asked. It took me a moment to answer him. I know that I told Jay that I had never said it to anyone but, that was a lie.
"Yeah" I replied leaning forward with my arms crossed and my head to the floor.
"Do you wanna talk about it?" he said softly.
"Not really, no. It was a long time ago" I sighed.
"That may be so but, it could explain your hesitation in your current relationship" Xavier insisted.
"I can't. It's been 7 years. I'm not ready" I groaned.
"Okay. Well maybe we should stop for today" he spoke closing the journal.
"I'm sorry for being difficult" I murmured.
"It's okay. Therapy takes time. One session isn't going to fix everything. Healing is a process, a slow one at that. Everyone must move at their own pace" he explained sounding like rehab commercial.
"Thank you" I responded standing up and grabbing my jacket.
"Here's my card if you ever need to talk in between appointments. See you next time" he hummed. I nodded taking the card before leaving his office.
On my drive home I reminisced on the past, the good times. I thought about the boy I had fallen in love with and how it destroyed me. Then how I kinda did the same thing to Jaysean yesterday.
"Healing takes time. We'll see" I scoffed as I walked into the apartment.
All the lights were off and I could hear some noise coming from the living room. My dad was at dinner with some clients so, it was probably Leslie. I decided to go and check up on her. We may not have been on good terms but, I was still her older brother which meant making sure she was okay.
"You have got to be kidding me" I cursed.
"Leo!" she shrieked flying off Jaysean's lap.
"Leo-" he started standing up. The look I shot him could have sent his ass up in flames.
"Couldn't even wait a whole day" I laughed but, shit wasn't funny. At all. Seeing your boyfriend or ex-boyfriend making out with your sister, nothing was hilarious about that.
"We aren't together" was his only reply as he stared me in the face. At that point, I went blank.
"Your right" I whispered shaking my head.
"Leo-" Leslie spoke but, shut up when she saw my face.
"Sorry I interrupted" I breathed before leaving the room.
My body was sort of numb as I traveled upstairs to my room. Closing the door, I placed my jacket on my bed and pulled out my phone. Dialing the number on the card I waiting as the other line began to ring.
"Hello" Xavier answered.
"I-I need to t-talk" I muttered my voice breaking a little. Love was pain. 7 years ago I learned that lesson for the first time and tonight I was reminded of it.
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Y'all already knew Jay was going to do something stupid. Men are just naturally stupid sometimes. Anyways, Leo is packing some baggage. It isn't healthy to keep everything bottled up. I'm the same way though. Next, Jaysean reflects on his decision with his mother. Will she help or make things worst?
