🔘 Chapter 17: My Motivation

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Jaysean's POV

Jaysean's POV

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"Jay. Jay. Jay!" Melody yelled until I finally turned to look at her.

"Huh?" I hummed.

"What's wrong with you? Your acting weird kinda Tommy at school. He's a little special" she murmured climbing on the couch to look me. I chuckled because sometimes the shit that came out of her mouth reminded me of myself.

"My boyfriend and I broke up" I replied.

"Is he that boy you brought over?" she asked.

"Yeah" I breathed.

"Why did you break up?" Melody questioned staring at me.

"Because love is bullshit. I mean is it so hard to say those three words. No, it isn't. If you love someone you should tell them. You remember that okay?" I explained and she just nodded.

"I love you and mommy" she stated smiling and giving me a hug.

"I love you too" I sighed.

"You should say it again. He is probably scared. I know I get scared when I do something bad because I know I'm gonna get a whoopin. But, then mommy says she loves after and I'm okay. You should say it again so, you guys can be okay" Melody told me.

"What are they teaching you in public school?" I laughed because this little girl was hella intelligent.

"Math" she answered before getting down and running upstairs.

Shaking my head, I pulled out my phone. It had been a couple of days since I kissed Leslie and Leo saw me. Now I know that shit was more fucked up than the justice system but, I didn't feel too bad. I wanted to hurt his ass like he did me.

Scrolling through my contacts, I found him and stared at it for a moment. Bringing the phone to my ear I waited for him to pick up. I wasn't going to be surprised if he didn't though.

"Why are you calling me?" Leo asked annoyed.

"Why are you calling me?" Leo asked annoyed

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"Damn no hello?" I scoffed.

"I'm not playing with you Jaysean. I will hang the fuck up" he snapped.

"Okay, chill. I just want to talk" I muttered.

"About what? The image of my sister shoving her tongue down your throat?" he questioned.

"Man we still have some stuff we need to discuss. Let's just meet up and air all this shit out" I offered.

"Fine. I'll come over after I'm done with work" he sighed.

"Cool. See you then. I love-" I began but, stopped before I could finish. After that, it got quiet as hell. You probably could have heard roaches fucking because of how silent it was.

"I have to go" Leo whispered.

"Okay," I muttered hanging up.

"Fuck!!" I groaned throwing my phone to the side.

It pissed me off that I could have him right now if he would just stop playing around.  All he had to do was tell me what we both knew was true and we'd be back together but, he was too scared.

"What the hell is your problem boy?" my mom asked coming into the living room.

"What the hell is your problem boy?" my mom asked coming into the living room

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"Nothing" I replied.

"Obviously it's something. You over here acting like a damn fool" she scoffed.

"Leo and I broke up," I told her.

"Huh. Can't say I'm surprised. That boy wasn't good for you" she said crossing her arms.

"Man this is why I didn't want to say anything!" I snapped getting up.

"What? I told you that this was a mistake. I don't know why you always have to be so damn hardheaded. Now you can go and find you a girl" she explained.

I love my mother. She sacrificed a lot after my dad died to take care of my sister and I. That being said she irritated me every time she tried to put her two sense in on my relationship with Leo. All because she couldn't accept the fact that I liked men too.

"Nah I'm good.  Besides just because we broke up doesn't mean we ain't getting back together. I love him" I argued.

"Your only 20, you don't know what love is!" my mom yelled annoyed.

"I do but, you just refuse to accept it. I love you and I'd do anything for you ma but, I'm not going to be miserable because you can't move past who I fuck. My sexuality isn't my problem, it's yours. Get over it" I told her.

"Why can't you see that this is a mistake? He is a mistake" she murmured.

"Why can't you see that he is good for me? You sent me down to Texas to get out of trouble. Since I've been with Leo I haven't done any stupid shit. I got a job, an apartment and I'm planning on going to college. He's my motivation for wanting better for myself but, your too hung up on his gender to see that. I guess it's partly my fault because I just allow you to say whatever you want but, you can't. Not when it comes to him especially, when you don't know shit about him. So, how about instead of trying to get me to fuck a girl, you thank the man that has been helping me stay on the right path" I explained before leaving.

I had to fix this shit with Leo. I needed my baby back because I couldn't see a future without his country ass in it.

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I'm so proud of Jaysean for finally setting his mom straight and not in a really disrespectful way. You shouldn't allow yourself to be miserable in order to please someone else. Anyways, next Leo and Jay talk and the truth comes out about Leo's past. We're not done yet.

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---MissTAYTAY1 XOXO
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