Fault (BTS FF)

23: HOT CHEETO PUFFS

I was watching videos on YouTube about raising a baby alone because I've never had a baby or took care of one.

The closest I've gotten to a baby is when I carried my cousins baby. But the thing is there was always someone the baby would go back to.

This time the baby was going to be with me.
I'm scared to go through this alone but at the same time I'm going to have to be responsible that means no drinking ,smoking, getting high, fucking guys for fun, cursing when I want, or partying.

Not even clubs.

At times like this I just want someone to hold me and comfort me. I wanted to be a mom in the future but not like this, Not under these circumstances.

I'm really mad that I went to that concert if I hadn't gone I'd be okay right now. If I had resisted my sexual urges I wouldn't be pregnant.

I don't know if this baby will like me since I have a very dark bitchy personality but hopefully it grows to at least try

Gosh what am I going to tell my parents.

My mom she'd be happy cause she's always wanted grandkids but will she want them knowing I'm raising the baby on my own.

My dad he on the other hand won't like taehyung my dad sees through people. And once he realizes who taehyung is and what he had done he's totally dead meat.

While lost in thought my phone rang.

"Hello"

"Hi how are you ?"

"Who's this"

"Oh sorry it's me namjoon"

"Oh hey what's up"

"Nothing much I just wanted to know how you were doing and if you were craving anything"

"No it's okay I'm doing alright I guess don't worry about me if I need anything I'll just Uber eats it"

"No you won't because I will get it for you"

"Namjoon you're not the babies father go and have fun stop worrying about me go get laid or something"

"I can't"

"And why is that?"

"I liked you and still do since before you were pregnant and in a way I wish I was the one in taehyung's position because I would love to have a baby with you"

"Namjoon you don't know what you're saying you're probably drunk goodbye"

"No!" Namjoon shouted through the phone before you could hang up.

You put the phone to your ear rolling your eyes waiting for him to speak.

"I'm not drunk I promise you that I really like you and I want to take care of you and the baby but that's only if you let me love you"

"Namjoon I think you should get some rest" on that note I ended the call.

What is it with BTS and the lies does he think I haven't heard that cliché bullshit before.
Guys have told me they 'loved me' and 'wanted to show me they love me' all kinds of bullshit and I'm not buying it this time.

Ever since jimin had hurt my heart I've stuck with fucking people cause that's the only way I could be pleasured by telling the person how fast to go or how hard I wanted it.

I'm not blind the whole time jimin had been with me made me realize he's trying hard to be with me thinking I'll forgive him like it's easy cause I'm pregnant.

I'm not stupid and neither is he we both know what he's up to.

Only after 20 minutes I heard the doorbell ring.

I took the elevator in our house instead of the stairs because they made me too tired easily.

Getting off from the elevator I look through the little tablet on the wall to see who's outside and to my surprise it's Namjoon with a lot of bags.
I open the door letting him in.

"Hello" Namjoon walks right past me straight to the elevator I follow after him.

The way up to my room was quiet I was thinking why in the world he was here. We don't talk at all and this is the most he probably will ever.

"Namjoon what are you doing?" I said as he placed the plastic bags on the bed then he took his coat off and his shoes pulling his pants down leaving him in his boxers. He removed his shirt throwing it on the floor.

He got in bed and reached for the TV control making himself comfortable.

"I'm sleeping with you tonight" he said.

"Um i don't know if it's obvious or not but it's kinda too late for that since I'm already pregnant" I state the obvious.

"I didn't mean it in that way I mean as in sleeping over, cuddling , eating snacks, and watching TV together but just cause you're pregnant doesn't mean we can't pleasure each other" he ended with a wink.

"Well okay then" I liked a man who knew what he wanted and Namjoon did he seemed liked he'd be dominant in bed and I liked that but I can't really do much in my state right now. Gosh I really did get pregnant at the wrong time.

I changed from my jeans and T-shirt to shorts and an oversized hoodie along with comfortable socks.

I didn't really care to change in front of Namjoon he was too into his tv show to notice anyway.

Damn maybe being pregnant did make men like me less.

I got in bed and Namjoon immediately pulled me towards him putting his arm around my shoulder.

"What even is this show?" I said opening one of the bags to find a lot of my favorite snacks.

There was pocky, veggie chips but ranch flavored, lots of chocolate bars, hot Cheetos THEN MY FAVORITE HOT CHEETO PUFFS!!! , and hella more chips.

I squealed in excitement he really did know my favorite.

"How'd you know I liked all these?"

"I just knew" he kissed my forehead and we ate and watched tv together all night.

His little action really made me smile.

Not even jimin knew what I liked