What lies behind a smile

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Peter
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It's over I got you"I yell walking over the Vulture. I got him he doesn't have his wings he's weak now, I didn't need the suit.

"I gotta tell you Pete I admire your bravery. I see why my daughter likes you. I do."I continue walking to him, my guard up.

"How could you do this to her?"I ask.

"To her?No no no Pete, this is for her."

"Yeah of course," I say in a sarcastic tone. With that, I web his hand to his desk. He just sighs

"Peter you're young, I don't expect you to understand this. I have to provide for my family-"
"So break the law? I may be young but selling these kinda weapons? That's wrong" I cut him off.

"Stark did the same thing, look where he is. A billionaire."

"That's different-"

"No Peter it's the same. But do you think Tony Stark cares about people like us? Well, he doesn't. No, we just get to pick up after them. That's just....that's just how it is."

"No, you're wrong. Why the hell are you even telling me this?" I ask him to give me a smirk that sends a shiver down my spine.

"Well I want you to learn but I mostly needed some time to get her airborne." With that my sense screams and I jump. The wings then come flying under me.

I use the pillars to my advantage. I then land in the middle.

"I'm sorry Peter."

"What do you mean that thing hasn't even touched me, "I yell

"Yeah, but it wasn't trying to.."

Shit.

I look up to see the building falling. I feel my body get smashed by the impact, air forced out of my lungs. Everything hurts. It all hurts so bad.
My lungs scream for air but I don't get any, no matter how hard I gasp I can't breathe, I'm trapped...I'm gonna die.

"Hello?"I scream

Nobody responds. I'm alone and I'm gonna die. I'm gonna die because I was stupid, what about May? What have you done? I suck in but it's not enough.

"HELLO PLEASE, I'M STUCK PLEASE I'M DOWN HERE HELP!"I scream
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"Peter hey hun wake up."I shot up feeling May's hands on my cheek. I cried holding her my face found the crook of her neck as I began to sob into her shoulder.
"What?What's wrong."I shake my head breathing heavily. Great job Peter, you woke her up.
"Peter, I need you to breathe!"
I suck air in and hold it in copying Mays breathing. I shake my head pushing her off.

Just breathe you're fine. It was a dream.
"Hey you're okay you're at home Peter breathed baby. In Out In Out"I follow her breathing again.
Now she's gonna get worried about me, I haven't done this in months to her knowing. She gives me a concerned look.

"Peter, are the night terrors back?"I shake my head, not able to look at her. "Pete?"

"No." my voice is low. "I'm sorry May." her eyes soften and she pulls me in for a hug.
"Go get some water and try to go back to sleep okay Pete, it's late and you need some rest. You have school in the morning."I nod letting her go, though I don't want to. When she leaves I decide a cold shower might help, the light stings my eyes but I adjust a bit quicker than normal. Tossing my clothes to the floor I feel disappointed in myself, neat lines rest on my four arms.

What the fuck is wrong with you? You were doing good.
A shaky sigh leaves my lips as I stare at the fresh cuts on my forearm, I look down to my thighs and there are somewhat faded scars.

two months down the drain, way too fuck up.

I walk into the shower, it feels good and I probably stay in the shower for too long because when I got out my skin was pink. I dress quickly and walk to the kitchen to grab some water.
May is there and she gives me a tired smile.

"Do you still wanna go to school tomorrow?" I nod, as much as I would love to not go to school I know I have to. I can't miss class with the way things have been going.

"Can we talk?"

"Okay."My voice comes out.

"You've seemed a little off lately Pete, I just want you to know I'm here for you. I just want you to be happy."

"I'm okay, May just tired and just had a bad dream, I didn't mean to worry you."I forced a smile and she sighed, putting her now empty cup in the sink and walked to me.

"Okay, hun well I'm gonna go back to sleep I love you."She wraps her arms around me tightly.
"Love you goodnight," I mumble when her arms fall and I know I have to let go but I don't want to, I just want to be in her arms like I used to when I was younger and would fall. But instead, I let go and force another smile.
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Word count 815
Date-12/3/21

I'm back! And this story is actually almost completely done being written i'll post all the chapters once it's done guys. I also have another in the works that i'm exited to publish! Let me know if y'all want a teaser to that one.
i'm sorry i've made y'all wait so long my life was being difficult.

Anyways i love you guys stay safe!