Caged Crown

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"Being Muslim is for all day, Not just 5 time a day."

15-03-2020

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I never told this to anyone. Although materials won't give us love, it gives us happiness. I'm not a materialistic person but icecreams, chocolates and cartoons never bid good byes to me. So I hold on my feelings with them. All thanks to the mamufacturer of these things. But the matter here is, I'm in love with 'Love'. Yet, I haven't recieved any. My parents had died before showing me what love is. My grandmother died before showering me with loads of love. Now, the person who promised me love haven't shown up.

My mood changes in every seconds but the only thing that I'm craving for is being loved and a happy life. The people around me is so caring but they never showed me love. It was as if I didn't deserve it. If anyone chooses 'dare' over truth then I would tell him/ her to prove what is love because I'm really in need of love. I thought Ayman loves me but I don't deserve that love. It will only lead us to destruction.

Whenever I'm hurt, my family tried to make me happy just by giving me materialistic things. The real source of happiness is 'Love' and I need that. I never loved the materials, I love them. I need the real love which comes from their heart and not from the shop. I could only see a strong sympathy in their eyes which I hate the most. I realized that they cared for me not because they really want to but probably the circumstance that I'm in made them to feel this. Juvi mom's sudden alter in character was the only reason that made me realize this. They act like I'm going to die soon.

Yeah, I heard it from Hima that I'm a patient with birth defects in heart. I needed heart transplantation immediately and I also know the fact that I wouldn't be able to survive if I disagree to do this surgery. They still thinks that I'm unaware about this. They wanted to keep this between them, probably they wanted me to stay out of this business. But how could I stay out of this business while they rip out my own chest and transfer my heart? How could I act normal when I myself can't swallow the fact that I needed heart trasplantation. I'm just pretending like I don't know, but for how long do I have to act like a dumb head. I believed Juvi mom cared and treated me because she accept me as her daughter, but then I realized she did all this because I'm a heart patient.

I snapped out of my thoughts and wiped my tears that were streaming out. I answered the call but there were silence. I had been recieving this call for five times and nobody spoke a word yet. I got annoyed and raised my voice, "Are you really testing my patience? If you really wanna talk then say something or just leave. If you dare calling me again then I.." I heard a chuckle that made me stop in mid sentence. That famous chuckle I'd been yearning to hear. My eyes widened and I remained silent. Tears rolled down my cheeks and I burst out crying.

"Hey stop. If I hear you cry then I'll stop calling." He said

"Doraemon." I whispered and he replied, "Leo." I closed my eyes taking a deep breathe. The years of detachment and this one voice is enough to mend my knapped heart.

"Where have you been these days?" I asked him and I wanted to tell him how much I missed him but I didn't know how to describe.

"It was you who took long steps from me." He said and I nodded, though I knew he couldn't see me.

"I know but the situation made me do so."

"I thought you really forgot your purpose why you landed in that city. I thought you had forgotten me. Then, all my shattered hopes patched that day when you sent me that bouquet..." he cut me off, "Who sent you what?"

"Naeef told me it was you who sent me the bouquet and icecream." I said.

"I didn't send you anything. I was busy because I had to deal with a serious patient."

I opened the windows and let in the cool breeze. I inhaled this moment I have with me because I don't want to lose this moment. I'm really in a shock. Though I tried to push him, I'm amazed that Ayman still want me back.

"Okay so when are you coming to my place to see my dad?" I asked, rays of happiness showered me.

"I already did." He replied, hiding all the emotions.

"Huh?" I sounded bewildered. All the emotions engulfed me, curiosity ate me alive. What's happening and why don't I know anything that's happening in my life.

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