Caged Crown

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Very ssooryy for the late update. I was inactive for a week. Jazakallah for waiting and keep supporting💝

Dedicated this chapter to aprilshowers__ , Bushraahmed111 because they're a gem💝

If you succeed in cheating someone, don't think that the person is a fool. Realize that the person trusted you much more than you deserved

21-06-2020

I was nervous as hell when they took me into the surgery room. I looked at my family for a support and slowly their vision disappeared and I was left inside a room filled with strangers wearing masks, gloves and operating gowns. It was terrifying and my heart rate instantly picked up at the sight of surgeons getting ready.

The room was brightly lit, cool and noisy. I constantly mumbled some duas and it seemed like there were no one left in my corner. I was legitimately screaming inside. I fell asleep quickly, probably because of the anesthaesia. Hearing was the last sense to leave me before I go to sleep.

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I woke up to the sight of shining stars, stars that never fails to shine even on the earth, the stars that live in this world and the stars that shine even during daytime. My family. Yes, they're my family, my backbone. Jabir and Junaid looked at each other with a smile, hiding their joyous tears behind.

"Welcome back, dear." I heard my Dad speak and I smiled back realizing that I've won. I won this battle. I don't have to bother about anything now. I'm free and I can go anywhere alone forgetting about the dizziness and passing out in the crowd. My heart is free of problems now, I won.

I mentally muttered 'ALHAMDULILLAH' (all praise to Allah) constantly because I couldn't stop believing that I'm alive. I fought back and I won. I feel like I'm the luckiest one in the world. To say that I'm happy would be an understatement and the word Happy wouldn't be enough to express how I feel right now.

I want to pray and thank Allah for this. I want to thank Him more. Mom walked in with a nurse and they spoke something for about 2-3 minutes. The breathing tube that had been annoying me had removed and I'm fully awake now. I feel like something heavy has been lifted up, that's been stopping me from speaking. The nurse busied herself on removing something from my wrists. As she saw me gasp due to the pain, she caressed my hand and apologized.

Tears love me more than anything because it accompany me whenever I'm sad or happy. But, tears of happiness are my favorite.

All praise to the Almighty

Who caressed my soul-

While it was in foul.

When I sinned,

The devil grinned

And my soul spun

back to Allah.

"Jannah is full of sinners who repent."

This one statement is a solace to my malice. I love the One who created this mankind, I love the One who'll destroy this mankind and the One who would replace it with something that we can't even dream of having.

I love you oh Allah!

But I'm a sinner-

-Who feeds the devil with my sins

And I'm more than thankful for this day.

I regret being a devil's companion.