surreptitious : heart's desire -- a markhyuck au

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mind's not cooperating
for heart's the one in control.
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01:53 am

lights off; almost everyone's asleep due to tiredness but donghyuck's an exception.

he's beside mark and heart loudly thumping; he stares at the sleeping male beside him admiring his ethereal beauty.

he's intoxicated to the point where he subconsciously leaned in connecting his lips to the unconscious male's lips.

wide-eyed, he pulled away cursing under his breath.

shit. WHAT THE FUCK'S GOING ON WITH YOU LEE DONGHYUCK!

he cursed himself realizing what he just did.

you fucking idiot. You can't just kiss your best friend like that! what if he's really awake?

he covers his face. now he's really not getting some sleep anymore.

08:06 am

mark was awake with his best friend acting weirdly. He noticed how he only looked at the window side.

"hyuck you'll have neck pain" Mark looks at him concerned only for donghyuck to look down. He's getting annoyed why he's not talking to him so he held the tanned male's chin making him flinch. Mark notices the latter's weird act.

"what's wrong with you?" Mark tries catching donghyuck's eyes as he kept avoiding the latter's gaze.

"n-nothing."

"no, is there something wrong with me and you're acting like that?" closing his eyes, donghyuck just acted sleeping.

"damn it hyuck" mark growled and gave up. Donghyuck couldn't face the older. He felt guilty.

what if his girlfriend knew that someone kissed her boyfriend or even if she didn't, she will live without knowing how someone had dirt her boyfriend's lips that's supposed to be on hers ONLY.

and donghyuck felt guilty of that. he felt selfish.

"woah" the cold winter breeze of chicago feels different. the fact that christmas season can be felt all around.

they were on the van observing everything like how the shops are full with christmas feels with windows having decorations as much as inside.

donghyuck was actually more focused on observing because of mark being in the other van making him feel relieved.

in six hours, they finally made it to the booked hotel near Johnny's hometown. He told the members how he already told his parents that they safely arrived and will go tomorrow because of jet lag and probably needed some rest which his parents agreed and couldn't contain their excitement.

roommates assigned, the members went to their respective rooms meanwhile donghyuck was awkwardly carrying his luggage because the luggage cart is already full. Likewise, mark was carrying his.

due to awkwardness, donghyuck fastened his pace and was now struggling to get the key card and mark butted in opening the room causing the other boy flustered with his stupidity.

mark was about to mutter something when donghyuck immediately went it muttering a "thanks" to mark before things get awkward again.

the two unpacked organizing their things with deafening silence that only the sound of the air conditioner thus their nails and knuckles hitting the cabinet whilst placing their clothing can only be heard.

he couldn't breathe. donghyuck couldn't breathe. He didn't know why it hurts. The silence, the awkwardness, coldness, everything is hurting him. He didn't even know that hot tears are streaming down his cheeks.

softly gasping, he runs his fingers and felt hot liquids on his cheeks. Donghyuck quickly stood up taking his coat and mask.

this alerted mark. He stood up and tries to follow Donghyuck but quickly stopped. Thinking that Donghyuck has a life and needed space.

sighing in defeat, he continued doing his work.

Donghyuck went to the fire exit's stairs at highest floor. Nobody really uses the stairs because there's an elevator anyways.

he didn't have to call anyone because they're probably sleep later and not bother to go out because of jet lag and he doesn't want them to worry where he is again. He hopes mark won't tell anyone though.

so he texted mark.

I'm fine. Don't tell anyone

and turned his phone off.

he covers his eyes and clutches his hair. His heart and mind is at war.

I'm supposed to be a moodmaker but how could I even make them happy yet couldn't lift myself and be happy?

he was busy scolding himself and didn't notice footsteps. He only noticed when a man appeared to pass him. He was shocked and stood up immediately when the man talked. he appeared to be in a uniform.

"don't let your feelings bring you to your worst state"

he froze. He looked at the man who seem to be a worker. he was asian.

Donghyuck sat again realizing that maybe listening and telling things to a stranger can ease his mind a bit.

The man was in his mid 20s, or so at least Donghyuck thought. Slight masculine yet still remains the slim figure.

"may I sit?" the man asked in which Donghyuck nodded. The man took of his gloves and sat beside hin.

"I'm sorry if I smell y'know, trashy." the man apologized. Donghyuck shook his head.

"no it's fine and you don't smell at all" he giggled.

"oh sorry. I'm Jiyeok but call me Jacob."

"so I was saying, don't let your feeling bring you at your worst state" this man seems to experienced it already yet he sensed something deeper, and Donghyuck knew he could learn from him.

"y'know we were abandoned. My mother died giving birth to my brother, Jinseo. My father? he was killed. So my mother's friend offered me to work  here at Chicago where her daughter was working as the former secretary here." Jacob smiled a little. Donghyuck could feel the pain in his smile.

"sorry to ask but how did your father die?"