surreptitious : heart's desire -- a markhyuck au

eleven

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what do you really feel?
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"fuck. I'm so so sorry." mark apologized with a wide eye realizing what he had done.

"hyung you have a girlfriend!" Donghyuck softly shouted but afterwards muttered a sorry because he know that he, too, was at fault.

"sorry because I knew but didn't push you away.."

"no hyuck. I should be the one apologizing. I was out of my mind and you're right. I have a girlfriend, maybe I just missed her too much"

just as then, the words that came off mark cracked his heart even more. He forcefully stood up and went off to the other bed wrapping his whole body with the soft comforter.

he didn't cry for what was he feeling was rage. Of course he was at wrong yet he felt degraded nonetheless.

how dare he send mix signals and play with his feelings like that. But in the end he scolds himself for being assumptious.

but still, fuck you Mark

on the other hand, did mark meant it? no. he ran out of excuse. Of course, who wouldn't? you just mindlessly kissed your best friend while you have a girlfriend and you're straight.

he himself didn't know why he kissed the latter yet he felt he was drowned in the latter's deep eyes and was tempted. He knew he shouldn't have done that.

just in time, his phone rings, indicating that someone messaged him. It was his girlfriend.

he opened the message and replied to an 'I miss you' from Mina. He smiled as he misses the cute girl.

he turned his phone off and calm darkness took off over the hotel room with the city lights being the only light source illuminating through the curtain.

he looked at Donghyuck who's body is covered with a blanket. He feels so awful. He thought of what could happen to their relationship afterwards.

they went back to their friendship and mark couldn't be more happy yet what he did was a complete disappointment.

he feels disgusted. Not at Donghyuck but at himself. He had sinned big TWICE. He has a girlfriend, he knew what he did is cheating and he kissed his bestfriend who has the same sexuality as his.

him overthinking led to him falling asleep.

"mark. get up." the disturbed male groaned and didn't bother opening his eyes when he got flicked in the forehead causing him to sit straight.

"what the fuck?!-- taeyong hyung?" he looked to the side and saw the other bed empty.

"Donghyuck's already at the lobby in case you're wondering." Taeyong slightly smirked but Mark's totally unaware of it.

"how'd you even get here?"

"Donghyuck said he didn't bother waking you up 'cause you seem to be sleeping "peacefully" yet the manager told him to fetch you yet he doesn't want to-- I mean he doesn't want to disturb you earlier so he told me to wake you up when I'll go down and thus, I'm still at our room that time getting ready so I agreed"

"damn we aren't even on stage yet here you are rapping" Mark joked which he got a glare as a response.

"manners kid. Oh God get up already. We'll be waiting down" and he left.

Mark grinned yet immediately turned into a frown when Donghyuck popped in his head.

he got down to the lobby and saw the members along with the maagers and staffs complete and was waiting for him.

"Mark's here." Johnny stated which Donghyuck look at Mark as well as Mark looked at Donghyuck.

nobody broke the eye contact until Mark got called out.

"okay so we are heading to Johnny's family. So the usual, go to your perspective van." Donghyuck quickly paced up to their van.

Mark could only sigh as he watch Donghyuck leave. He'll talk to him later. Yet as for now, he could only wait till they arrive.

his mind was disheveled with thoughts and guilt. Mark stares at his phone with Donghyuck's name in messages was a sign he wanted to send an apology but failed to do so.

so he closed his eyes in frustration.

on the other hand, Donghyuck stares at the accelerating view throughout the window with a blank mind.

Just eating chips early in the morning.