My mom passed away when I was nine-years-old from anorexia. Failure of organs, that's what the doctors called it. She had been suffering for years, and no one knew. Not even my dad.
My parents loved each other. But my mom kept it from the man she loved. No one knows why. Maybe my dad does ... but he doesn't talk about it.
He blames himself for her death. I don't know why. Probably because when they were younger and first married, he encouraged both of them to get skinny and fit. My mom was always fit, that was until she died.
I miss her. I was super close to her. Closer to her than I am to any of my sisters. And I know she was closer to me as a daughter than she was to her other daughters. Everyone knows it. But no one holds it over my head.
They say obesity and anorexia is not genetic. They say it's a psychological health issue. I want to believe doctors and psychologists. But I can't help but think I inherited anorexia from my mom.
I've never been diagnosed with it. And I don't want to be. If I am, my dad won't let me do sports. I just know it.
It's not like I try hard to be skinny. I just have the ability to eat whatever I want. I also run. But I can't express enough how much shame I get from it. I see it and hear it every day of my life. I just want to be accepted. Accept me for who I am. I like being skinny. I don't like being super skinny as I am, but I don't dream of being fat either. Not that I need a boy to accept me, just someone.
Please ... .
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Heyo!
Just wanted to point out skinny shaming awareness.
Whenever there is a book about a bigger girl, there is always a best friend or sister who is super skinny and perfect and the comment section is just full of hate for her.
It's kind of demoralizing to me.
The book is usually about accepting a girl for who she is ... and yet those reading it aren't getting the lesson.
I often times find myself disliking a skinny girl at first sight but that is pretty much the same as seeing a bigger girl and not liking her right away for her body type.
So ... I hope you enjoy the story!
This goes out to all you skinny ladies!!!
YOU ARE READING
Skinny Love (completed)
RomanceSince grade school, Jasmine Sivon has been looked at as the skinny girl. Though she seems happy on the outside, she is truly looked at as sickly by her family and friends. Only skin and bones, Jasmine is in denial about being anorexic. The dream of...
