I'm In Love With My Killer

Issues

Michael & I slept in separate beds that night because I didn't want to end up giving in to him. Definitely not after what happened to cause me to leave him. You got me messed up. I almost did though. I almost let him have his way but no. Anyway.. I got up the next morning at eight and began to get ready for Court. I put on a red suit and the red skirt to match. Blood red lip stick, red heals, red earrings and my black stockings. This was my way of silent revenge on him.. Red for blood and black for grief which will be none that I give at his funeral. I grabbed my suitcase full of evidence and went to the vehicle. To my surprise, Michael was already there.

Michael: My beautiful loving wife has finally awaken.

Suesie: Don't even.. I'm focused on one thing only today and I don't need you screwing my mind up.

Michael nodded..

Michael: Okay..

Suesie: That son of bitch will regret the day that he was born.. I swear, if the Judge doesn't believe me, I will literally die.

Michael: Hey! Don't talk like that, what's wrong with you?

Suesie: I can and I will talk any way that I want to. There's not a damn thing that you can do stop it because it's my mouth and I say what I want.

Michael started speaking over me when I said the words 'I want to.'

Michael: No you can't, you're spoiling the mind of our baby and as long as I am alive, I can stop you.

Suesie: No you can't!

Michael: Yes I can Suzanne!

Michael screamed. It was silent for a while and then I spoke.

Suesie: Then tell me..

Michael: Tell you what?

Suesie: If you were to stop me, how would you stop me?

Michael looked down for minute as he thought.

Michael: Well, it depends on the situation. Like when I yelled at you just now. Other times I may kiss you, or hold you, or.. You know.

I rolled my eyes.

Suesie: Never again.

Michael: We almost did last night.

Suesie: That was this morning and I don't give a-.

Michael: Watch it.

Michael said putting up one fingers and cutting me off.

Suesie: Or what? What's the worst that you'll do? Try and kiss me? I dare you to touch me. I dare you!

Michael got out the vehicle and went in the house. He came back out after a few minutes and then came back. He started driving and then spoke after a sigh.

Michael: You know I Love You right?

Suesie: I don't know anymore..

Michael: Do you love me?

Suesie: Am I carrying a baby?

Michael: Then why do you try to hurt me? Why do you try to make me get mad? You know that I don't want to hurt you.

Suesie: But you did.

Michael: I know, and I'm sorry. I don't know what more I can give because I've given you all of me already.

Suesie: What more can I give? I've given you more than just myself. I've given you every last thing that I have. Do you know what you have? What you have is priceless.

I said through my tears. Michael's face flashed with sorrow and regret. He didn't speak for a while either.

Suesie: You have my heart.. And the fact that I let you hurt me makes me hurt you back. But when you cheated, that was a big 'Fuck you!' in my face! I Love You too but damn it Michael! I'll be damned if I let you get away with this one.

Michael let it sink in before he spoke.

Michael: Sue.. Baby, I wish that I could take that day back. I really wish I could but I can't. I need you to forgive me and trust me because we are about to have a family. I need you more than anything. I went beyond crazy when you left me. Don't go back with your parents, not now. Okay baby?

Suesie: Don't call me-.

Michael: Baby, I Love You.

Michael said cutting me off. I turned towards the window and crossed my legs along with my arms. Michael chuckled at my reaction. We arrived there at 9:37 and I jumped out.

Suesie: Oh thank God.

I walked inside and the courthouse looked like a business place. Each floor had a different appeal to it. The floor we needed to go to looked like an empty office.

Michael: You look like a beautiful rose.

Suesie: Yeah, but these thorns will cut you like a cutting knife that will draw blood if you touch it.

Michael looked down, bit his lip and let out a weak laugh.. It didn't even sound like a laugh to me, just a weak breath or a super small cough. We walked into the courtroom and waited for our names to be called.

Judge: All rise!

We stood and he went over the same things that you see on television.