𝑘𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑚𝑒 𝑠𝑜𝑓𝑡𝑙𝑦 • ⚣ (ᴍ.ᴘ 𝘅 ᴋ.ᴄ)

006 - ғᴀʟʟɪɴɢ

hey, this chapter goes out to -neonacidx and @steph. she is the one who made my wonderful book cover and i thank her for that. i'm also thankful for jah/neonacid for always complimenting my writing and making me feel good about it. ily guys. thank you, for 1k. enjoy this shitty book. 🖤 (also, i'll be writing in the 3rd person from now on because it's what i do best.)

it had felt like years since kairi had hung out with the boys. maybe that was his fault— but they were always hanging out with mattia. kairi had literally nothing to do. his mom was at work, his sister was out with her friends.

kairi was just sitting at home being lonely and sad. he had nothing and no one anymore. he just couldn't take the silence any longer.

he stood from his bed, despite not wanting to really do anything, he thought he should have at least some substance before he passed out again. as he slowly walked toward the door to his bedroom, he caught a look of himself in the mirror.

the ends of the sleeves of his hoodie were damp. under his eyes were darkened. his eyes themselves were a whole other story; red and puff. his cheeks were tear stained. his hair was a mess and he honestly look a bit homeless.

kairi sighed running his finger through his hair. he took off the hoodie and got a clean one. he was home alone so he didn't really care about not wearing pants. he opened his room door. he yawned as walked downstairs.

"he's finally awake!" the small boy flinched at the loud voice, causing him to slip at the second to last stair; landed on his butt.

he heard a group start to laugh and he instantly knew who was in his house. he looked up to see all the boys, including him.

"what the fuck! you guys can't just come into my house and camp out in my living room like i don't fucking live here!" kairi was so startled by the boys he yelled. he didn't mean to. it just kind of came out. he looked down at the floor. he stressfully combed his fingers through his hair again. "sorry. you guys scared the actual shit out of me."

ale smiled brightly. being the one who yelled and scared kairi, he felt better knowing kai wasn't angry. he walked over to him and pulled him off the stairs and into a hug. "good morning, sleepy one." he dropped him.

"morning." kairi smiled as he moved toward the kitchen, the boys following close after him. "why are you guys here?" he asked opening the fridge.

"cause we haven't seen you in days! you don't hangout with us anymore." alvaro's voice got saddened toward the end of his sentence.

"dude..are you not wearing pants?" robert asked. that grabbed mattia's attention. after that dream he had before he left the house that morning, seeing kairi with no pants was driving him up a wall.

"well, i didn't think you fuckers would be in my house so, no. i'm not wearing any." the boys laughed causing kairi to chuckle. the small boy bent down in the fridge. catching even more attention from mattia. the thing he noticed though, was that kairi was being swallowed up by the hoodie.

"kairi?" mattia's voice was low and small. he didn't want to make kairi even more upset. kairi stood up almost instantly. he closed the fridge with a water bottle in hand and turned to face mattia.

"yes?" he said back, his tone was kind of irritated and fed up but mattia ignored it. he just examined the hoodie; looking at it and its every detail.

"is that mine?" kairi's face twisted. almost as he had forgotten what he was wearing and that he was wearing it. kairi was silent. he hadn't moved yet. he hadn't said anything. his brain had short circuit.

"why do you care?" he said back aggressively. the tension in the room had multiplied by thousands. you could literally cut it with a knife.

"don't fucking start with that kairi or do want to boys to know too." kairi mouth twitched into a furious frown. he stomped toward mattia. he gripped the collar of his shirt. making mattia's eyes go wide.

"you can talk all the shit you want, you can be a bitch for as long as you want but you do not bring them into our bullshit. understood?" kairi's voice was stern. mattia nodded gently. "i'll be back." kairi said as he let go of mattia's shirt, slightly pushing him away.

after kairi went upstairs all the boys turned they're attention to mattia. "what the fuck was that?" alvaro asked. mattia rubbed his temples in frustration.

"we got into a shitty fight."

"yea, but usually, y'all get through it and the fights are over with in a matter of days. this fight seems different." alvaro said, almost as if he was thinking aloud. mattia felt like punching something or maybe even someone.

"i'm gonna go before shit gets worse." the boys watched mattia as he left the kitchen and followed him when he walked into the living room.

"come on, man! stay! please?" alejandro pleaded. mattia shook his head.

"kairi doesn't want me to here. at the end of the day, that's my best friend. if he isn't happy, i'm not happy." mattia opened the door but before leaving he decided to leave something with the four boys. "tell him, i said i'm sorry." he paused for a moment "yea, tell him i said that." he closed the door.

mattia walked to his car and got in. he wanted to get wasted. he wanted to stop feeling. even for a second. he hated the pain of not being able to hold kairi while he was crying. he hated the fact that he was the reason for kairi's crying. just looking at kairi in the state he was in made mattia feel like dog shit.

as he pulled out of kairi's driveway he remembered the liquor his dad keeps in his house. mattia picked up speed. he knew damn well he wasn't staying sober all day.

a/n: HEYYYY! sorry this took so long to post but thank you again for 1k reads! ily guys and i hope quarantine is doing y'all good. N E WAYS. i'll see y'all in the next chapter. drink water and WASH YOUR HANDS.
-el