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liked by ROADMANMATTIA and 1279 others kaispremium idk why but i miss u a bit
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username 😭 kai finna make me cry wit these sad ass posts man ROADMANMATTIA sameeee kaispremium oh.
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i ran my fingers through hair. i had no idea what to do. why had mattia liked and commented on my spam post? should i delete him? no. thats petty as hell. i stood from bed after hearing my mom call my name from the end of the stairs.
as i came toward the top of the stairs i saw ale, robert and alvaro. i smiled. for some reason those three could sense when i was upset. i nodded from them to come up and they came running. laughing and slightly pushing each other.
i ran toward my room and they followed. when they reached my room alvaro closed the door behind himself and he let out a huff, before walking over to my bed and falling face first. the boys laughed and so did i.
mattia
i joined the live kairi had started on instagram. i watched as him, robert, ale, and alvaro jumped around the room; laughing and making jokes. kairi grabbed his phone from where it was set up on the floor and flopped into his bed.
"where's mattia?" he said squinting his eyes at the phone, reading off the first comment he seemed to look at. "he's not here," he chuckled. "we don't hangout all the time." kairi laughed as he read off more comments.
i couldn't take it anymore, i had to leave the live. hearing his voice, his laugh, the smallest giggles would make me miss him. i didn't want to miss him because he obviously didn't miss me.
the things he said hurt me. on my way home that day, i cried. i cried so fucking hard. by the time i got home, i couldn't see straight because of how hard my head was pounding. the abounding amount of tears was enough to make me feel dehydrated.
i've been super fucked up since then. i know this whole fight has affected kairi. the thing is, i don't think he knows how its affected me. everything has been so outrageously unfair.
i lost the person i could talk to about anything.
i lost the person i laugh with.
i lost the person that was more than just special to me.
i lost my best friend.
no, no. i lost the love of my life.
"WHAT!" i screamed out. "love of my life?" i asked myself. i'm not gay. or at least i don't think i am. i've never really liked guys. i've always swung more toward girls but? no. i can't. i don't. i won't.
or will i?
a/n: yoo whats up my party people! haha jkjk n e ways, i really enjoy writing mattia and next chapter will be a mostly mattia chapter. it might also have some smut so watch out for that 😳. ightt enough of me. take care of yourself and drink water.
