Rules || J.JK

6. Feeling

Jungkook woke up the next morning, waking up to a very bad headache

The sunlight coming from the window was not helping at all, making him feel worse than he already was

He was experiencing a hangover because of the alcohol he drank last night

He mumbled a string of curse words, regretting having drank to much

He slowly made his way to the bathroom to take a shower

But it did take some time

A little stumble here and there but he was able to make it inside without passing out

He then stripped his clothes off him and turned on the warm water

Closing his eyes, he took in the feeling of the water falling down from his hair to his abdomen, then his feet

Keeping his eyes closed, he remembered the past night's events

Despite the alcohol in his system, he was able to recall everything that happened last night

everything

. . .

Fifteen

He was fifteen when he was called by the school's office telling him he was excused because he had to go to the hospital

He knew why, but he didn't want to know why

Panic suddenly rising in his chest when he was on his way

please please please please

He kept saying in his head, his breath coming out short every time he tried to breathe

"I'm sorry"

numbness

The first feeling he felt

Was it even considered a feeling when you couldn't feel a thing?

The words of the doctor feeling foreign to him, as if he said something using a dead language

It took him awhile to realize what he just said, and when he did, he tensed up

All color from his once joy-filled face, gone

poof

The joy she never failed to make, gone

just like that

Right in front of him was the operation room

With the permission of the doctor, slowly entering the room, he then stopped dead on his tracks

There she was

Lifeless

Her chest wasn't moving, color from her once beautiful, glowing skin now nothing but a pale color

All the wires that were once hooked on her, just so she could live, were all removed, having no purpose anymore because she was...

dead

"Eomma?" 

He called

. . .

He slowly made his way to his mother's side, his trembling body making it impossible for him to walk

No... no

Jungkook wake up, wake up, wake up!

Stop dreaming! Stop stop!

Make it stop!

The thoughts in his head, all coming down at once

"Eomma..."

He touched her but had to retract his hand right away

cold

He then touched her face, shaking it lightly

"Eomma... i-it's me"

From this point he couldn't keep his tears in anymore

"Eomma, wake up"

He said, his hands shaking her shoulder

Then reality hit him

She's gone

"Wake up, please, wake up!"

He was now hugging her cold body

"Eomma, wake up, please, come back!"

"Don't leave me! You said you were going to be there for me!"

He shouted

"You said you were going to watch me play!"

"You said you were going to watch me win!"

From this point he was hysterical, his tears coming down like a waterfall, wetting his school uniform

The doctors removed him from his mother, they had to hold him down

"Stop! stop! What are you doing?!"

He shouted angrily at the doctors

"Fuck off! Let me go!"

He said pushing aside the doctors and nurses holding him, freeing himself

But before he could hold his mother once again he was now pushed to the ground by more nurses, then he felt something sharp poke his back

"Kid, calm down, please" the doctor said, trying to calm the frantic boy

"Let me go! Let me stay with her!"

He then suddenly felt sleepy, he continued shouting with his remaining energy, begging for them to let him go, fatigue quickly spreading through his body, then the next thing he knew, he was passed out on the cold floor

please don't leave me