Don't think about it...
Stop thinking about it
Nari was curled up at the corner of an empty room in one of her teammates' house, with her hugging her knees and her head facing down, a solemn look on her face
Just like last time, did she wish to be in bed instead, sleeping
"Nari?"
A knock sounded at the door, telling her someone was outside
The door opened revealing Taehyung
"Why are you here?"
He asked, Nari looking up briefly, she noticed the thin layer of sweat on his face and the short breaths he let out, giving away that he's been looking for her this whole time
Calming himself, he made his way to his friend, bringing a vacant chair with him, he sat down facing her
Nari didn't even look up again, not in the mood to be explaining why she was acting this way
But Taehyung being Taehyung, noticing his friend's gloomy aura, he wanted to lighten the mood
"Yah, what's wrong?"
His voice sounding around the once quiet room, waiting for a response before continuing
"You're acting like as if you lost"
He chuckled, but then stopped when Nari kept quiet
"Considering you being the championship point, I don't get why your sad"
He said, still trying to get anything out of her , any response or movement
But when Nari still didn't look up Taehyung stood up from his chair, worry etched on his face, making his way to her side, he sat down, legs crossed with a hand gently placed on her shoulder
He knew the reason why she was acting this way but didn't want to push it because he knew it was a sensitive topic, so he decided to talk to her slowly
He also knew that she's never told anyone else besides him, giving him the
responsibility to listen to her if it was about her past, not that he minded
"Hey... if this is about that, I'm here to listen, don't thi-"
"Please, I want to be alone..." Nari said, not in the mood to talk
Taehyung, knowing his limits and knowing that this wasn't going to go anywhere, stood up again, but before making his way outside, he offered his friend a look of sympathy
"I'll come back later", then he was out, leaving Nari in her own little bubble again, thinking
Great, how could you push away your best friend, acting like you didn't need him
Nari let out a frustrated sigh
So now you've won, what now?
The voices in her head were filling her mind again
The quiet room not helping either as the absence of sound gave the voices in her head the advantage to be heard more
It dosen't change anything, it dosen't change what they think about you
She looked at the ceiling, closing her eyes, tears were pooling around them, trying her best to keep them in
You are so weak
You're still a failure, you're still a disappointment
She was right and you were wrong, you were always wrong
At this point Nari couldn't take it anymore, her past coming to haunt her again and again and again
She covered her eyes with both her trembling hands, crying into them
Frustrated, sad, angry tears were all falling at once, down her face, to her neck, and onto her clothes, soaking them
Sobs were coming out of her mouth, sounding around the whole room
"Stop! Stop!"
She kept on saying, shaking her head
You will never be enough
Never
She was already too tired, too tired to fight back the voices, the hurt
The thin sheet of water on her forehead and short puffs of air she took were proof of her exhaustion
Her eyes drooping to a close, hoping to make everything stop
She knew she couldn't do it alone
She didn't want to do it alone
She needed someone to hold her hand and guide her out
Out of the shadows she's been living
Out and into the light
. . .
Then she felt it
Warmth
Comforting warmth of someone's arms
She was brought to someone's chest, the cotton on her face was soft
Someone's arms were around her, encaging her shaking form
She was so busy crying, she didn't even notice someone enter the room
"It's okay..."
His gentle voice making her eyes go wide
At this rate, she didn't have the energy anymore, but slowly looking up, his face was right in front of her
His hooded, big doe eyes looking down at her with the most gentle look she's ever seen and with a light smile adorning his face
Despite the closeness of both their faces, Nari being too fatigue to pull away and go home, she stayed
She allowed herself to fall back on his chest, crying her heart out, while he continued to whisper comforting words into her ear
"It's okay..."
Oh how much the tables have turned
He thought, remembering the night at his house
But this was different, both of them sober and fully aware of the situation happening
"Thank you"
Nari said in her tired state, trying to keep her teary eyes open, her small voice reaching to his ears, she sounded so broken, making Jungkook pull her now sleeping form closer to his chest, constantly patting her back gently
A small smile appeared on his face, taking in the moment of her calm state in his embrace
"No..."
"Thank you"
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Rules || J.JK
Fanfiction*au "There are rules that serve as barriers between us..." "and I'd break every single one to be with you" (unedited) started at 3/17/20
