When Hermione Fights

After-Shock

Chapter beta: Dani

Chapter translator: Aivy

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Hermione's POV

When I retired to our room, I knew I had again explored and also crossed boundaries, but to my own amazement it had felt good. I had enjoyed being so bloody dominant. I had enjoyed tormenting Draco very much, for the fact that I had caused him pain in multiple and complex ways had been evident. Physically and mentally, I had dangerously clawed at his control. I belonged to no-one, damn it! Nevertheless, I was sure he had liked it and the thrill of danger had excited him, otherwise I would hardly have let myself be tempted to torture him so much.

And if I was honest, if I had not restrained myself from time to time, had not pulled myself back with determination, I could have tormented him much more and I had enjoyed it in all its forms. Until then, I had not known that I was carrying such a repertoire of sadistic ideas around with me. I gladly admitted my astonishment at myself, because everything I could think of to torment him came to me spontaneously. Draco deserved every pain and humiliation I had inflicted on him earlier as he had knowingly disregarded my explicit wishes, which had made me excessively angry and, as I then realized, had made sure that I did not even hold back with my furious thoughts of revenge against him. I just did not let anyone treat me like that. Nobody could treat me like that without bearing the consequences, not even my boyfriend, maybe especially not my boyfriend, because I was absolutely not Draco's trophy.

There was a reason I had fled the Manor. I had intended to diminish the dominion of the three serpents over me and therefore I had to stick to my new point of view firmly and ruthlessly; that had to be done! It was enough! Draco could not and was not allowed to abuse me and to dangle me between Severus and Lucius like the trophy to be won. They didn't deserve that and neither did I! My anger over this and over Draco's high-handed behaviour was slow to subside. I hoped he had finally internalised the fact that I belonged to no one!

That I could be like that worried me a little. The way he lay there so helplessly before me, that was ... that was just fantastic and I had enjoyed molesting him and satisfying my lust on him. And then to see him coming, so completely powerless, at the mercy of his own lust and greed, had given me an incredible feeling of delight. I knew I had taken him by surprise and I would not be able to do something like that again so easily, only if he wasn't paying attention, but it was good to show him that I could still surprise him even if it was with my cruelty.

I had been serious about Lucius and Severus. I enjoyed it and with the necessary distance I also liked to know that I had them in my hand. On Severus, I had tried to use my charm tonight and I really didn't need Draco's interference, because Severus had been quite tame by his standards. However, when Draco had interfered so stupidly and had rubbed me being with him so plainly under Severus' nose, Severus became angry for understandable reasons. And then who did he take his bad temper out on? Who had to bear the consequences of Draco's childish behaviour? Exactly, ME, and I didn't want that! Draco had to bloody learn that!

When I thought of the expression on Harry's and Ron's faces when I walked up to them half-naked, their profound horror after seeing what Draco's and my love play looked like... Harry had irretrievably lost his hopes and fantasies of how I could be and was now confronted with the total truth that I was as I was. He had looked very shaken and very pale. Well, we didn't need to talk about Ron, he had seemed on the verge of brain damage, coupled with a heart attack, as bright red as he had looked when he saw me like this, with Draco and what I did to him.

I had resolutely sent them both away. They had looked so horrified already and if they had had to witness the rest, they would probably have been ripe for St. Mungos. I chuckled in amusement. The Twins, however, had put on quite a show themselves. I had been practically able to taste their pent-up lust after they had watched us and I hadn't had to ask for long if they wanted to participate for a short while.