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The day after the 'funeral' I nearly killed myself. I tried 4 different ways: overdose, jumping, cutting, and getting run over. None of them worked, because there was always someone to stop me. When I went to the pharmacy to buy the strongest pills I could, the woman asked me why I needed them. I stuttered. "You caught me." I said as I walked off, finding another solution.
I then went to a random apartment complex and ran straight to the top. Bingo; I had said to myself. But again, there was a stranger at the top too. She jumped about 7 seconds before I could stop her. I just said, "You caught me." and got traumatised.
After two failed attempts, I decided to give up. But then I got a great idea: I should just 'accidentally' get run over. I thought this was it, you know? I said my goodbyes and everything. I walked in front of a big delivery truck, but the driver saw me first. He stopped right at my foot. "What are you doing, kid! Do you wanna die?" Yes. "You caught me." I shrugged and walked home.
While I was preparing dinner I had my last idea: knives. I took the biggest knife out of the kitchen drawer, and started slitting my wrists. I thought that no one could stop me, because Luna would not be home until 2 hours later. I cut a bit by bit, blood spilling out more each time. Yes, I truly was going to die. Slowly but painfully. It's what I deserve. But no....
"What are you doing, Rose! Oh my god!" Luna had come home early. And I'm still alive,
unfortunately.
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After coming home, I opened the TV. I don't watch TV much so this is exciting. It opened to a news channel. I read the headline. "College student Brianna Vivian was found dead by a bin with her wrists cut open. Here's the witness who found her lifeless as he called the hospital. He says, 'You don't just leave a dead girl on the floor and walk by it.' Well said. The police have confirmed it is suicide, so I pay all my condolences to Brianna's family and dear friends."
What? Are you kidding? This isn't true. It can't be true. Did she do what I was planning to do, as if she was reading my mind? But why? Maybe she loved Rin too. She probably did. Because I know who Rin loved. He loved Brianna. She was always going to be better than me, no matter what. Now I feel superior. Because she's dead.
At least the person she loved loved her back, even if she knew it or not.
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