Denial

Chapter 19

Its Saturday morning and the sun is shinning, even though it is only 7am. You may think I’m crazy for waking up so early in the weekend, but I wanted to go for a run on the beach. I’m not the athletic type of girl, but today I needed it. I needed to get out of my house and have some fresh air. I need to take out all of my stress and running is just the best thing to do. 

Today my parents were fighting, again. They woke me up around 6am, because they kept shouting and wouldn’t let us sleep. I don’t know what they argued about this time, but I had to get out. If I’d stayed, I’d probably have said something about the little “incident”, as I call it, from a few weeks ago. Of course I don’t, I resist the urge and I get out of the house before i regret it. I take my sister with me, because she really needs it too.

I’m caught up in a horrible situation. A part of me knows that what my mom is doing is wrong, and that my dad doesn’t deserve it, he needs to know. However, the other part of me doesn’t want him to know, doesn’t want him to get hurt, and I’m so confused right now. I don’t know what is the right thing to do. Even though it is their problem, i’m still involved because they are my parents and worst of all, because I saw it with my own eyes. I remember when I caught Harry cheating on Amy, i knew it wasn’t my problem, but hiding it from her didn’t seem right. Well, it is kind of like that, but this time it is worse, because I actually care about my father. I just don’t know what to do. I wish I could erase that scene from my memory, or I wish I could back in time and relive that day, and never see my mother cheating on my father. But I can’t do that, so now I’m stuck here. I just hate my mother, she ruined everything.

“Shaila” my sister’s voice brings me out of my thoughts. She sounds out of breathe, and by now, her face is deep red. “Can we stop now? I need a rest” she says, and I nod. 

We both stop running to catch our breathes for a while. I totally zoned out, I didn’t notice we were still running, i just kept going. We’ve ran a mile already, and I’m sweating like a pig.

I take a sip from my water, and I hand Aash the bottle. She drinks the whole thing in less than a minute. That poor kid was dying out there.

“You okay?” I laugh.

“Yeah” she says, after she finished the bottle. She throws it to the nearest trashcan and then comes back to me.

“You wanna keep going?” I ask, and she shakes her head “no”.

“Why don’t we go get breakfast or something? I’m starving” she says. 

“Okay, its good that i took my money with me. But i choose the restaurant, because i’m paying”

“What? Why do you get to choose the restaurant?” Aash complains. “I want to choose where to eat!”

“Well you won’t. If you want to eat, we’ll go where I say. I’m already paying for your food, so you’re welcome. And i’m older, so I decide”

“Its not fair! I hate being the younger sister, you get to do everything!” 

I just roll my eyes at her, and I begin to walk to IHop. I really like it there, the pancakes are great and I could really eat them all by myself today, I’m so hungry. I know my sister likes it there, so hopefully, she won’t complain all day. This is the thing about her, she always complains about everything, and it drives me nuts.