Sincerely, Tushari.

I need to vent.

Idk why the hell I feel like this man.

Like wtf. Im feeling some type of way and I have no damn idea why.

One minute I was happy, and the next I'm wishing I had somebody like everybody. I mean I know there aren't tons of people out there that have a significant other and tbh I'm good on all that, but I can't fight the fact that I'm a little sad and I'm craving some attention. Male attention.

I just want someone to be corny with, you know? I want someone that laughs at my crazy imagination and someone that will be corny with me.

I want a first date, a REAL first date. I want my dude to show up at my school or job with teddy bears, balloons and chocolates on valentines day like all those other corny couples.

I want someone that writes me notes or long ass stupid text every morning lol.

I want a dude to be nervous around me, make it feel like I intimidate him and they can't help that their hands get all sweaty when they hold mine.

I want someone that will match my fly, someone that cops the new pairs of jays and even though I'm not a sneaker person, still tells the employee "aye lemme get a size 6 for my girl." I think shit like that is so cute.

I wanna lay in bed, talking until the sun comes up with my leg wrapped around hid waist and his head on my chest. I want to be treated like the queen I know that I am.

& lastly, I want someone that can handle the flaws of me. I'm
Beautiful and I know this, but I have my flaws and that's when I become self conscious. I want someone that will look me in the eyes and tell me how beautiful I am and they don't care what anyone else has to say.

I want to be loved.

I don't need love, but it would be good to have it around.

I've never gotten that type of treatment and the guys that I talked to in the past treated me like scum. I will never stoop that low ever again and the next guy that walks into my life better have a purpose or I will show him to stage left quickly.

Just how I feel.