Found (a jamilton fanfiction) [COMPLETED]

Chapter Eighteen- The Letter

March 18, 2020
My Dearest Alexander,
I'm worried. Ever since you got here things have been going in a downward spiral. I know it may not get better for the next few months but I'm scared.
I don't want you to hurt yourself again like you did today.
When I heard you through the bathroom door, I felt my heart drop. I knew exactly what you were going to do and I started to panic.
I thought I was going to lose you.
How come I haven't gone into an insane state for how much I worry about you?
I usually wake up in the middle of the night to check up on Rae. But now I'm starting to check on you too.
I have grown to love you so much that the hole left by my wife's death is almost replaced. Almost.
I'm afraid that you will never love me the way I love you.
I mean, I have over a thousand letters that I have written over the years. Even when we hadn't even spoke to each other for years I still wrote.
I wrote every day, hoping to finally catch up with you and confess my love. But now that you're here.. I find it very difficult to say.
I have tried so many times to tell you these past few days but I always chickened out.
I guess if you're reading this.. I finally found a way to tell you.
With lots of love,
Your dearest Thomas.

Hey!
If you guys would like a book with all of Thomas's letters let me know! I think it would be a good way to experiment with my writing style and stuff.
I hope you guys enjoyed this little snippit of Thomas's thoughts.
Stay safe
I love you
-Angel 💙💙💙💙💙💙