Felicity

XVI

   I unlocked Reid's hotel room and he walked in. I kind of wanted to stay, but I was responsible for the case as well as Reid. I couldn't let my personal wishes take over my responsibility, right?

   "Are you going to stay?" He asked, not looking at me. 

   "I shouldn't." I paused and looked at Reid's face. "But if you want me to..."

   He nodded his head and I entered the room, closing the door behind me. In the moment I didn't think about why Reid wanted me here. I had just assumed that he wanted me to stay with him for awhile. He had gone through so much and didn't take enough time to recuperate. Now he had to deal with something that even I didn't understand. 

   "I'm sorry that I didn't tell you sooner. I wanted to, you know. But it's kind of hard to say how you feel when the last time that happened, it didn't turn out," He said as he looked at me. 

   "Reid, you had no control over what happened to her. You couldn't have stopped her. We don't save everyone. We've known that since day one."

   "Thanks, and no offense, but, just because you want me here to do, I don't even know what, doesn't mean I am going to stand still. This case is way more important than how I feel right now, so I am keeping these files."

   I could tell for the tenth time that he was serious about still being on the case. I couldn't fight him about that one. He was right, too. There was a case going on and it was top priority. So, I smiled and replied, 

   "Yeah, you're right. I can't argue with you there. But, I am going to stay for a bit. Our conversation isn't done."

   He didn't say anything, he only looked at me. I knew that he wanted to avoid a serious conversation because it would make him nervous. He was very nervous at the police department and he most likely still was. The fact was, I didn't understand why. Was he seriously worried that I might think badly of him because of it? I could never do that to him and I hoped he knew that. 

   "I got so worried that because I feel this way, everything would be at risk. Do you remember when I said that adult males are less likely to be accepting? That kept me up at night, it made me distracted, when all I wanted to do is be good at my job and be with her. But now, all I want is you." 

   When he looked up at me his eyes got a good bit wider and he covered his mouth. I raised an eyebrow at him, not knowing how else I was supposed to reply. He obviously didn't mean to say the last part and it was honestly a little funny how he reacted to his own words. 

   "I have no idea why that would make you worried. As far as I'm concerned, that isn't such a bad thing. Unless you think so?" I said, sarcastically. 

   "Yes! You're... not a female."

   "And that's a bad thing?" I pretended to take offense. "I like being 'not a female' thank you very much."

   It was his turn to look at me weird. I said that on purpose so that he would lighten up. I wanted to know everything that had been going on in his head for the past couple of weeks, but not when he was a nervous wreck.

   "All that I am saying is that it's hard confronting you about this and saying things because it's not something someone might expect from me. Or from anyone," He replied. 

   "Hey, I'm not here to judge. I don't care what is expected from you right now."

   "Then why are you here?" He asked. "You've already brought me here, there's no need to stay," Reid said, defensively. 

   "I'm not going. I'm not going because you don't want me to. No matter what you say, I know you don't. So, I'm staying with your little happy butt until you are sick of me."

   "I don't need a babysitter, Derek."

   I thought for a second whether I was going to retaliate or comfort him. Reid still hadn't heard my reply to his initial statement and the longer that he waited until I said something, the more uncomfortable he was. If I kept ignoring his confession it wouldn't end up good.

   "Reid-"

   He cut me off as I felt his lips on mine. I couldn't believe what he was doing. I thought that he might've been insane, forcing himself onto me like that. That had never happened before, he was never forceful. Especially never around me. But, I didn't hesitate to put my hands on his head and keep him from pulling away from me. My heart was racing like mad, forgetting everything that I was supposed to be doing. After a minute, Reid pulled away, probably realizing exactly what he had just done. 

   "Oh my God, Derek I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to-" He started to apologize then cut himself off. 

   He took a step back away from me and looked at the floor. I tried to think of something that I could say that wouldn't make it awkward. 

   "Whether you meant to or not... damn," I said, not being able to find the words to describe how I was feeling in that moment. 

   "I didn't want you to talk. You sound so smart and sometimes I hate it. Sometimes I don't want to hear what you have to say because I know it's right." He was making an excuse. 

   "You did that because you didn't want me to talk? No, you did that because you wanted to."

   He paused, thinking over my statement. I knew that I was right, Reid just had to figure that out too. 

   "Reid, do you want my answer?" I asked. 

   "To what?"

   "Well, first, to that- what you just did and what you said to me at the station," I replied. 

   "I mean, that's why I told you. So that you would say something in response. So, yeah."

   He definitely seemed a little more relaxed than he was before, even after he kissed me. I looked straight into his eyes and said, 

   "I can't believe that you got worried about me when I feel the same way. Except I can hide it way better than you can, obviously."

   "Are you serious?"

   "Yeah, I do like you too."

   "Yeah, obviously, but you seriously think that you can hide it better?" He was joking. 

   "Um, excuse me? Obviously?" I asked, knowing that it wasn't obvious. "That was not obvious. What was obvious was you."

   "No, I clearly remember the look on your face when I told you. You had no idea."

   "Well, I didn't have no idea, but, you're right. It wasn't obvious."

   Reid didn't say anything else. I could tell that he was contemplating my reply, which I had given him. 

   "Are you serious?" He asked. "You like me too?"

   The way he asked that was adorable. 

   "You seriously think that I would kiss you and not like you?"

   He had to think about it for a minute and then didn't give a reply. 

   "Spencer, I seriously do like you."

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