Felicity

XVIII

A Couple of Weeks Later

   I was reading War and Peace for the second time that day. That, as well as two different books about Nikola Tesla and a couple books on quantum physics. I sat the book down on my chest and laid back in my bed. We were all given time off of work and I was almost automatically granted two weeks, at least, at Derek's request. 

   "We all need some vacation time, but you especially need to get some rest," Hotch had told me when I asked about my prolonged time off. 

   But, the thing was, while I could stay in my room for days, reading for hours at a time, I couldn't even begin to think about what I was reading if someone like Derek was on my mind. I was especially out of it because we hadn't said much to each other since our last case together. I was honestly worried that he was regretting everything that had happened while we were on the case. I wanted to call him so bad and hear his voice again, but what would I say? If I said what was on my mind, what would he think of me then? I wanted to tell him how bad I missed him and that I wanted to see him again, but how could I when I still wasn't sure if he felt the same?

   I fidgeted with my hands, feeling a little bit nervous thinking about it. Over the past couple of weeks of me not being able to talk to Derek, I was shown how much I truly liked him. Every single time I thought about him, my stomach did back flips and my head spun whenever I thought too hard about if he cared about me as much as I cared about him. I took the book off of my chest and I sat up quickly, trying to get my mind off of him by wondering if it was too late to get coffee. I looked at my watch, it reading about half past twelve. Definitely not too late for coffee, I thought with a smile. 

   Keeping the book in my hand, I got up so that I could get ready to go out. I hadn't gotten out much since the last case, I was busy trying to occupy my time with reading and solving math equations. All of that time was basically wasted just so that my mind wouldn't travel back to Derek. But, obviously, that didn't work. Every single time my mind was clear, only seconds later it would be filled with him. I shook my head as if that was going to push out all of my thoughts and I got ready. I packed War and Peace in my messenger bag and I grabbed my keys, looking around to see if I was missing anything. It was noticeably more sunny outside than previous days, so I grabbed my sunglasses and slipped them onto my face. 

   I headed out of my apartment and down the stairs, after locking the door. I walked to my car, feeling a little bit better, now that I was outside and not sitting down. As I plugged my key into the ignition, I pondered about where I was going to go. I then remembered the place that I had gone to with Derek weeks ago. The coffee I had ordered there was amazing and I was pretty sure I knew how to get there. I thought about it for a second and then concluded that I did, in fact, remember all of the road signs that lead us there.

   I started the engine and headed for the cafe, coffee being the only thing on my mind. I had one cup that morning, but something that amazing couldn't be passed up for seconds. I smiled a little bit as I drove down the highway, very happy that I would be getting more sugar then planned. It took me about 15 minutes to get there, it had only taken Derek to get there in 10 the first time, but he obviously avoided the speed limit and proper safety. I shook my head as I thought back to his immaturity. I pulled into the parking lot and a smile appeared on my lips again as I smelled the sugar from inside. 

   I headed inside, finding a place to sit so that I could order. When I was handed a menu, I immediately started to look for what I wanted. After only have been sitting for about two minutes, I heard a familiar voice say from above me,