Here I am again in tears writing about my life. This weeks been hard so many memory's went through my head. My bff I won't say who told me something huge gave me purmishtion to tell the police so I told my dad and he called the police last night they came over I told them everything I knew and they took pictures of my snaps.
Tonight is my dogs last night here and I'm a mess I can't loose them and so close to my b-day I should be happy I'm about to become a teen I even got high lights but here I am crying in the dark like have so many times before. It 3:18 am right now. I've been so lonely lately all I have most days are my dogs and now there going away.
Me and my girl/boy friend are going great. I have a new bff that I completely trust pluss I'm basicly saving his life. I miss my friends and how they could easily distract me from my stupid family problems. Thing are the same with dad I given up hoping that he will keep promises yeah I gave to last year.
Hope is a hard thing to have.picking your self up over and over again gets tiring. But I have to I can't fall in to the darkness again I don't know how I could get out there would be no reason to so I stand tall and smile why because that's what I just have to do.
But I'm holding on for two people right now they don't know that but that's how it is.I help them hold on to that ledge even if there tired even with all the wate telling them to just let go yeah I have a lot of ways to explain depression.
Even if you don't have any reason to hold on just hold on, hold on for your future self,hold on for your future pet or family just hold on so you can see someone smile. Because someone out there cares, I care.
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No I'm Not Ok💔
Non-FictionThis book is full of raw unedited writeings of a 12 year old . this way of writing is on perpose. I hope you learn what's in the head of a depressed 12 year old girl.
