Caught Up In Lucifer's Eyes

Kabanata 9

Farewell

It was like I'm back on my childhood years. Totoong masarap maging bata. I kinda miss the feeling of having a very simple life with no complications. Pero parte na rin yan ng buhay. As we get older, our lives become more complicated.

I dragged Lucius from here to there. I was like a spoiled brat  and he's my kj dad that I'm bringing to satisfy my whims and caprices.

Well, it's his fault. Dinala niya ako rito. It's his another fault for buying an unlimited pass, not knowing I'm this adventurous. 

"Doon tayo!"

Itinuro ko sa kanya ang isang ride na tila isang malaking barko na umaandar pasulong at paurong. I could hear those people's scream from the grounds. Nakakaexcite!

Umiling siya sa akin.

"Kakagaling lang natin diyan."

Lucius was stiff throughout the rides. Akala ko dito lalabas ang takot niya at emosyon. I expected him to freak out and scream at the top of his lungs. Maling-mali ako.

Sa bawat rides na nasubukan namin ay napakakalmado niya. Ang ilang mga katabi namin ay sigaw na nang sigaw habang siya ay seryosong nakatingin lang.

Walang talab ang kahit anong rides. Kahit pa matatanggal na ang organs ko sa sobrang lakas ng impact, wala pa ring epekto sa kanya.

Maybe he was born this way. Sagad ang pagkakakalmado niya hanggang sa kaduluduluhang buto. I'm quite amused of his bored expression everytime we had a ride.

"Uy," tawag ko. I tapped his shoulder.

"Masaya ka pa ba?" I asked him.

He looked at me with the same serious expression. He licked his lips before answering.

"Why'd you ask?"

Nagkibit-balikat naman ako. I was just curious.

"Well, you're too stiff during the rides. Are you having fun?"

He smiled at my curiosity. My heart leaped at that. Unang beses ko siyang nakitang ngumiti! I should have recorded that!

"This is not just my thing. But to see that you're having fun, I'm satisfied enough. You could say I'm happy too," simple niyang sinabi.

So he's just keeping up because this is what makes me happy? My heart warmed at that thought.

I didn't want to ruin the moment. But at the back of my mind, I was caught by a small thought. Whoever the girl she'd be marrying in the future, I'm sure that girl would be lucky enough to be showered with much love. I wish that whatever happens, she shouldn't let this man go. He is just too deserving to be loved.

Whatever I and Lucius have is still blurry. I guess that's all platonic love. Maybe he cares for me like his little sister or daughter. Ako naman ay mahal siya bilang isang kapamilya. I have longed the feeling of having a family in the past, that could be the reason why I'm feeling like this. There are many kinds of love afterall.

Nangiti ako nang maisip iyon. The atmosphere got to thick and serious. I shook that sentiment away and just focused on the moment. I don't wanna lose this precious memory.

"What are you thinking?"

He looked straightly at my eyes. He held my hand at sandaling napatingin ako roon.

I shook my head and smiled at him. He stilled at every possible emotion I might give away.

That is also my flaw. I give out emotions too carelessly. Napakadali kong basahin mula sa ekspresyon lang.