Let Me Go

Little Blue Pill

*Billie's POV*

I drive home from Hayden's house with a permanent smile on my face. Dude I wanna wife this girl so hard. She's cute, funny, and she could have me whipped in a heartbeat. I go to my room closing the door behind me. I can't stop running my fingers over my lips. She kissed me. My heart beats faster just thinking about it. Suddenly Finneas busts in my room with an irritated look on his face.

"Do you know how embarrassing it is to ask your girlfriend for a ride home after your sister ditches you? Did you forget 'bro's before hoes'?" he questions.

"First off it's always 'chicks before dicks', so fuck you and two, if you're so embarrassed around her maybe you shouldn't date her..." I shrug.

"I-...I can't even argue with the first part of that. But how fucking dare you say that I shouldn't date her. I was embarrassed because you left with zero explanation. You know what... I can't even with you right now." he mutters the last part under his breath and goes to his room leaving me to my thoughts. So much for having a good day. Finneas fucking ruined it.

Do it.

Take one.

It'll make you feel good.

Come on.

Just one.

I grab a box from under my bed and open it. I laugh to myself. Ya know I sing about not wanting to do drugs, but if people really knew me... they'd hate to see the monster I've become.

Just pop one.

Feed the monster what it wants.

Just one.

That's all it takes.

The voices get louder in my head. I can't shake them off anymore. I open one of the pill bottles and take just one of them. Chasing it down with some water. I put everything back in it's place and just lay on my bed letting the slowly building high wash over me until I fall asleep.

I wake up. My eyes are open. But I can't move. I can't move and I start to panic. I'm screaming inside my head but nothing is coming out of my mouth. I thought I had gotten over this... after what seemed like forever of suffering in silence I finally regained control over my body. I looked at my phone. Great it's like 3 in the morning. There's only one person I wanted to talk to, but there's a huge problem. My dumb ass forgot to ask for her number. Instead I turn on my tv aimlessly changing the channels before settling on Family Feud. Time to come up with a game plan...

a/n: ooo whatchu think is gonna happen?

I wanna know what you guys think.