Let Me Go

Fix Me

*Hayden's POV*

I finally got called into work. Which means Billie probably did too. Fuck. I get ready and head to Interscope. This will be fun.

It most definitely was not fun.

We're going on tour. Me. Finneas. Ki because Finn begged management to let her come along. Maggie. Patrick. And last but not least devil spawn herself, Billie.

Two months in North America, then two months of worlds, including Japan, Australia, and Africa being tacked on for various pop up shows, and back to North America for one more month of shows... great.

After the meeting ends I see Billie at the opposite end of the conference room and I avoid her glaring at me. It's like she knows I touched her car... I try and get out of there as fast as possible. I spot Ki and Finneas near the stairs having a heated conversation.

"Did you or did you not tell her that my sister had been cheating?"

"No I haven't, not yet."

"Don't worry she wasn't the only one..." I speak up both of them turning to face me, "at the time when she accused me of cheating, I honestly hadn't up to that point. I was pissed that she would think that I'd do something like that to her, but then I turned around and did it. I cheated. And it wasn't because I found out about her cheating first, which makes this so much worse." I confess, "as for Billie's car, that was all me Ki had nothing to do with it." There goes another lie out of my mouth.

"So you did fuck with my car..." I hear Billie speak behind me. "And we both cheated... which means you were right to say we needed to break up because this," she gestures between us, "was never gonna work. Not with two fucked up broken people trying to fill a black hole of a void in each other's lives." She takes a breath before speaking again, "I think our relationship should be strictly professional from here on out."

"Agreed." I state trying to hold my composure.

Billie nods and then walks away. I pull Ki aside, "Sorry Finn I need to borrow her."

"Do you wanna tell me why you kept that from me?" I question with a firm tone. "You has just told me that you hurt Billie over something stupid she did. I've seen you spiral out of control before... I knew that if I let that out of the bag, you'd fall deeper into whatever hole of depression you were in and would put you in risk of using again. As far as Billie's car goes, I admit, I took that too far. I'm sorry. Thank you for covering for me though. As much as I appreciate it, I plan on telling Finn. Because I trust him, and he trusts me. I don't wanna lose that." I stare at her not knowing what to say. "What, never pegged your bougie best friend to actually have decent advice?" she chuckles.

I reach into my pocket, "There's one last thing I need to tell you... about spiraling actually. I almost did. I called Jackson that night because I wanted a fix. He came over and I paid him..." She glares at me knowing my past with him. "Oh god no I did not pay him with sex!" I say a little too loud. I pull the pill bottle out of my pocket, and hand it to her. "I didn't take a single one, as much as I fucking wanted to, I didn't even open the bottle." she takes it and hugs me tight. "Fuck, you are such a fucking idiot. But I love you," she says as she pulls away, "And I want what's best for you. I'm proud of you. Now stop lying to people and make that monayyyyy!" She winks laughing and returns to Finn wrapping her arm around his waist as they walk out together.

I smile savoring the image before me.

"Grey!" Danny says getting my attention. "We're scheduling the shoot that Billie had requested for the two of you, publishing will be in Vanity Fair. The photographers were a little backed up, but they can do this week, Billie's week is fairly open, what day works for you?"he asks expectantly. "Oh um. I don't think I'll be joining." I reply. "Nonsense Grey, I am aware of the end of your personal relationship with Billie, that does not mean the end of a professional one... if you're wondering what the headline will read, it'll be along the lines of the powerhouse collaborating sessions between you two. Nothing about a relationship. Besides since scheduling was backed up, the press has died down on the scandal." he explains.

I check my schedule, or pretend to anyways because I don't really have a life outside of work anymore. "Wednesday morning works for me," I answer. "Great, see you then." he smiles and dismisses me.

I gather my things and head home noticing my mom has company over. I open the door and get ready to announce myself, first hearing the thumping, followed my my mom screaming. Nope nope nope. I do not need to hear that. I run back outside, and decide to keep running.

This time I don't end up in front of Billie's house. I end up at the Goodwill where our first date started, but I wasn't thinking about her. I was looking at all the stuff that people donate, to be cleaned, fixed up, and repurposed. It makes me feel understood. I'm not completely broken, I'm simply in need of a little fixing. As I scan over the shelves not paying attention to where I'm going, I bump into someone.

"Oh shit I'm so sorry," I say as take notice of the green eyed girl. "It's ok I wasn't exactly paying attention myself." she confesses. She quickly looks me up and down before speaking, "Wait you work at Interscope too?" I furrow my brow. How does she know? "I uh, saw the ID badge..." pointing at the lanyard hanging out of my pocket. "Yeah, I work in the graphic design department." "Very cool, I work in photography and social media." She holds out her hand.

"My name is Claudia."

a/n: y'all don't even know what's about to go down. Or maybe you do 🤷🏼‍♀️