Hakuoki : Tale Of Yuki

Surprise Surprise

Hey guys,

I'm back.

First thing first.. yeah, I know 'where's the updates and new chapters? I've been hiatus for like I think a year and a half?

Sure enough it's been a while.

Writing this is an outlet for me.. and earning so much likes n support from you guys have been nothing but a wonderful part of motivation to my dull life.

I see Yuki as myself.. whiny, pathetic.. have various 'abilities' but stuck in a constant mindset of depressingly weak unable to do anything for himself..

I never intended to give him a happy ending. This story initially meant to be fluff comfort genre.. i don't remember why i wrote this but mostly because I like Sannan and wanted his character to have a better story?

But as I kept writing my life just spiral out of control. Then the story gets darker. I write things to have something.. to 'hurt'.. to kill something..

Well, if we follow the anime plot the story didn't have a 'happy' ending either.

So the ending was death.

For this child... And for me.

Nothing more.. nothing less..

....

That's what I initially planned..

Basically, life got too much for me.

I did some things I wasn't proud of,

I was simply too tired of everything.

Really..

Everyone here, you, all the readers that had been reading my stories n leaving nice comments.. at least none of you ever hurt me..

This platform had been a huge relief for me to just write things without having to worry about being judge..

God.. I'm so tired of it.

... it's just not enough. Nothing I do will ever please the people around me.. my actions, my grades, my looks.. just everything is wrong..

I wanted to die so badly..

I'm tired of pretending being the 'nice n perfect' student, child, sister.. just everything. How many certificates, trophy, awards, money, no matter how much .. it's just never enough...

....

Everyone around me are just too hypocritical, toxic even..

Sadness is just emotion, they said. Why can't I be fucking grateful of what I have? Because I lacked faith that's why I am unhappy.. smile, ask God for help. Stop complaining.

I did stopped complaining, talking about my feelings and thoughts.. bottling it up and brushing it aside like it didn't matter.. be rational.

But it just too tiring..

So I had to stopped myself.

I somehow managed to hit the brake before the car crash..

I got help.

I just couldn't deny it any longer.

I was desperate. Just to speak to someone.. just anyone who can make sense of my thoughts and feelings.

But I was too ashamed to admit I have problems... and too scared.

So I seek help... secretly from the knowledge of my family.

If you wanna hear the story behind it. Just read the other book I published.. you can see it in my profile (I think) the title is your thoughts on my thoughts' ... I won't' rant or talk about my personal issues in any of the chapters anymore so I just decide to wrote it somewhere else...

I just.. wanted to talk.

.....

Anyway... its been a year..

... and I did got better.

A lot.

I don't think about wanting to kill myself anymore. I just trying to be a better me and attain my own happiness..

.....

Which brings me to my bad new.

I won't be continuing this book.

The plot and writing, everything is a mess and considering how i planned everyone was going to die..

I don't think you'll like it either.

But it's okay. I can't continue writing for this book... but I intend to complete the story.

Good news.

I'm rewriting this story in a new book.

The title is Yuki no Monogatari : Kako hen. You can check it out in my profile of published work... i think i left wattpad too long, I can't remember how to make the book visible to people when you search for it.

So... yeah.

I'm rewriting it to have proper plot.. story and all that.

And I've decided when the new book reaches 10 chapters and above.. I'll also draw it as comic..

I'm still deciding lots of things. But that's what I planning to do.

I'm juggling my design work and my degree so the process will be slow..

But I wanna do it.

Here's bits of what I been working on.

Yeah, the story is still filled with angst.. but I promise there's a happy ending.

Again.

The process is slow. Writing the plot. Sketching. Character design.. everything is a lot. I don't want you guys to put too much expectations.. I just simply wanted to tell you of my plan...

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This is a hobby for me and I do have real life priorities after all..

Anyway,

Good luck to all of you..

Since with all the covid... and everything going on with life..

We all have a lot in our plate.

I wish you all the best.

Thank you. Love you guys. ❤