Paralyzed [Nouis]

Chapter 24 // Louis

I wrote the song used in the chapter (some of you have read it before). It's the first song I've ever written so please don't hate me if it's terrible I'm sorry.

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"Paralyzed without you.

What have I gotten into?

Wishing you were here with me.

Talking to strange voices.

Making all the wrong choices.

How crazy can I be?

"All my scars are starting to bleed.

My thoughts won't stop running free.

And I know I'm not thinking to positively.

My he's is pounding like me heart.

Needed you ever since the start.

But I bet (my brain says) out future will be dark.

(If there even is an us)

"Because now I'm paralyzed.

Stuck in a complicated time.

I can't even seen to breathe.

Cause you're not here with me.

Feel so stupid without you.

Crying the night through.

But I know that you're staying strong.

Thought I'd be the same, but I was wrong.

"You tried to run away one day.

Way out of this big city.

And then you completely forgot about me.

Your room is flooded with tissues.

I mean, I knew you had issues.

I never knew they were this bad.

"You were bruised, you were broken.

You never told me you were choking.

Even though I know, I should have noticed. 

"Because now I'm paralyzed.

Stuck in a complicated time.

I can't even seem to breathe.

Cause you're not here with me!

Feel so stupid without you.

Crying the night through.

But I know that you're staying strong.

Thought I'd be the same, but I was wrong.

"I can hear my heart beating.

My body is against sleeping.

You can tell I haven't been eating.

I don't even think I'm breathing.

"Because now I'm paralyzed.

Stuck in a complicated time.

I can't even seem to breathe.

Cause you're not here with me.

Feel so stupid without you.

Crying the night through.

But I know you're staying strong.

Thought I'd be the same, but I was wrong. . . ."

I sighed and closed my notebook after singing along to the things I had written down in the past couple minutes. I'm surprised I'd written an entire song that quickly, but my mind was racing enough for me to write a three-thousand word essay. It's only been five minutes and I've locked myself in my room, about ready to cry. Liam and Zayn burst in my room almost as soon as I stopped singing. Of course.

"What happened? Did Niall get hurt?" I was frantic. I sat up quickly, pushing mysing into a sitting position, ignoring the poudning in my head. Zayn and Liam shook their heads, and I let out a sigh of relief, but I was still a bit uncomfortable. They looked pretty serious.

"Harry's distracting Niall. He's on the phone with him." Zayn said. "You have to go after him, Lou! Before he gets away forever!"

I sighed in frustration and began muttering. "There's nothing I can do. I don't wanna force him back here after what you did to him, and I can't convince him to come back."

"You can, Louis. He cares about you." Zayn said. "Please go after him, Louis, I can't bare to see you hurt if you don't get him back. I can't bare to possibly never see him in person again. Please."

I shook my head, sniffling against tears that weren't coming out of my eyes. "I can't go after him, Zayn, I wouldn't even be able to find him! How am I supposed to know where he is? How am I supposed to convince him to come back?"

"Use your heart, Louis!" Zayn said. "I know it sounds cheesy as fuck, but if you truly love someone, which you do, you'll be able to find them wherever they go. A-as for convincing him to come back, just tell him you love him! Maybe . . . maybe he loves you too."

"I doubt it, Zayn." I said, shaking my head. "I highly doubt that Niall loves me."

"Louis, you really need to do this," Liam cut in, "You're the only one with a chance to find him and convincing him to come back! Please, I can't lose my best friend."

"And don't you remember your own quote? You said it in an interview once. 'Even if there's just a tiny tiny chance, isn't that worth going for it?' Go for it!" Zayn urged.

I stood up quickly and left my room. Tiny, tiny chance. I ran past Harry, who was hanging up the phone, and out the door into the cold night air.

Niall will be mine.

As I raced on and on, my heart taking me where I needed to go, the cold burned my skin. Did I notice? Barely. Tears welled up in my eyes from all the wind blowing into them.

"Niall!" I screamed as I saw him from a distance. At that moment, I lost all courage, but I didn't stop running towards him. He stopped and just stood there, obviously looking for where the cry came from. I kept calling him name over and over. "Niall! Niall! Niall!"

Soon enough, I was standing in front of him, throwing my arms around him fragile figure and spinning him around in a hug, leaving his bag to clatter to the ground.

"Niall, oh my god I can't believe you would run away again! Never do that to me again I was so scared!" I rambled, putting him down and grabbing his hands.

"Louis?" He seemed so shocked that I would be there. "Wh-what are you doing here? I thought- thought you didn't care about me."

And that's when I lost it- hearing his voice so sweet and innocent and hurt (I can't believe he thought I didn't care about him). I didn't care what he felt about me anymore. I needed this. I needed him.

I smashed my lips onto his, wrapping my arms around his waist, and held him as close as I could without breaking him. He stood frozen for a second before his lips were moving with mine, and his arms were wrapping around my neck.

Suddenly, nothing mattered. Nothing at all, because finally, finally, I was kissing Niall Horan.