The cool night air rushed around us as we sat on my roof. After the week we had this is what I need. I leaned back looking up at the stars. I shifted my eyes to my older sister as she lite a blunt putting it between her lips. She took a long drag before holding it out for me. I took it between my fingers bring it to my lips taking a drag. "are we going to be okay?" I asked releasing smoke earning my sister's brown eyes. "I mean is the band going to be okay?" Is everything going to change because Dani is leaving the band?
"yeah of course" she nodded her head taking the blunt out of my hand. "I am not ready to give up on it. are you?" she took another drag and passing it back to me. I shook my head I think I would be lost without the band. Music has always been the one thing I could always count on. "good" she bumped my shoulder with hers.
"you could make it as a solo artist" If any of us were to go solo and make it big it would be Lisa. I put the blunt between my lips breathing it in. I released the smoke out in slow puffs watching it dance in the air.
"yeah and I would shit my pants on stage. I am way to awkward to be on the stage alone" Lisa laughed shaking her head. "you are the most natural on stage, how about this god forbid the band breaks up its me and you sing together"
"all the high harmonies" I laughed passing the blunt to her.
"we're be high alright" she laughed at her own joke. "do you remember the first time we smoked together?"
"how could I forget" I closed my eyes reliving that night.
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We just got to our hotel room and I dropped my bag onto the floor. "I am taking a nap" I said grabbing my blue fuzzy blanket falling onto my bed. We have been traveling for the last two weeks so that meant very little to no sleep for me. I closed my eyes wrapping my blanket around me tightly.
"night rat" Lisa laughed falling onto her bed. It didn't take long for sleep to take over. I don't know how long I slept for but when I woke up the room smelled different and Lisa wasn't in her bed. I pushed myself up rubbing the sleep out of my eyes. It smells like weed, the people in the next room most be smoking.
I get out of bed making my way over to the bathroom. "Lise I have to pee" I knock on the door. I hear her mumbled something, but I couldn't make it out. The smell was even stronger telling me it wasn't coming from another person's room.
"give me a minute" her voice was higher pitch that usual, something that happens when she is panicked or nervous. I try to open the door, but it is locked. I shoved my hand into my pocket pulling out a penny I had so I could unlock the door. Lisa looked like a deer in the headlights when I opened the door.
"you're not the brightest sometimes" I shook my head strolling over to her. "your lucky you share a room with me and not some of our other sisters" I took the blunt out of her hand bringing it to my lips. I took a long drag keeping my stare fixed on her. She keep opening and closing her mouth like she was trying to say something but nothing would come out.
"you smoke?" she finally spoke. I nodded my head handing it back to her. "how did I not know this?"
"because I am better at hiding it" I smirked. "now I have to pee you can finish that in the room" I nudged her out of the room.
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"remember how panicked you got when Dani knocked on the door?" I smiled meeting my sister's brown eyes.
"yes, I sprayed like a whole bottle of perfume and you threw up because of it" she laughed throwing her head back.
"that's because I have a weak stomach" I rolled my eyes putting my head on her shoulder. "oh god and that video of me you posted on our page. Lauren Cimorelli's real personality" All those old memories came flooding back and I couldn't help but wish I could go back to them. Back when we all need each other back before everything changed.
"what are you thinking about ladybug?" she leaned her head against mine.
"about how everything has changed" I sighed. "we don't all need each other anymore" I blinked away tears not wanting to cry.
"we will always need each other Lo, I am always going to be here" she grabbed my hand giving it a squeeze. While she says that now things could change. Sisters sometimes become strangers. "promise me we won't change after you get married"
"I promise" she kissed the top of my head. "I am not going to abandon you Lo. While life might change you are always going to be my little sister. The person I know I can come to who will never judge me"
Tears slipped down my cheeks. "how did we get so sappy so fast?" I laughed laying down on the roof looking up at the stars. I wanted to freeze time even if it was just for a little bit. While she says things won't change people don't tend to stick around me. My best friend, my sister, my twin brain now barely even answers my text.
"I don't know" she shook her head standing up. "come on we should get inside before Amy does her nightly check on you" she laughed sticking her hand out for me. I slipped my hand in hers and she pulled me to my feet.
