Amy's POV
Silence never terrified like it did tonight. Maybe it was just over thinking or the fear of what the silence meant. Countless nights I spent curled up next to her in her bed because she didn't want to be alone with her thoughts. When she told me, she was okay and that she was going to go to bed I wanted to believe her. I wanted nothing more than to believe the demons she has been fighting had finally loosen their grips on her.
I thought just maybe she was starting to feel better. Her smile was so bright today, there was no way it was fake. We spent the day just hanging out with our sisters laughing at old memories. As great as it was it didn't put my mind at ease. There was this feeling that something wasn't right keeping me up. I climbed out of bed to go to the bathroom.
I stopped in my tracks standing by Lauren's door for a moment. Hearing my younger sister's muffled sobs broke my heart. I reached out for her knob turning it only to find it locked. "Laur" I knocked on the door softly.
"Yeah Ames?" she said clearing her throat.
"are you okay? Do you want me to come in?" I tried to turn the knob again like magically it would be open. I heard her footsteps before the door opened. She looked down at me with a forced smile.
"I am fine Ames. I am going to take a shower" Sadness filled her brown eyes as she gave me another forced smile. I nodded my head ready to say something, but she spoke again. "thank you for always being here for me"
"you don't need to thank me Laur" I grabbed her hand. "I am always going to be here not just because I am your small big sister" she cracked a real smile. Her real smile always fills me with such joy. "but because you are my best friend"
"I love you" she threw her arms around me hugging me tightly.
"I love you too" I hugged her back. "you will be happy again and I will do whatever I can to help" I pulled back meeting her brown eyes.
"I know" she nodded her head. "don't worry about me. I am okay" I pray every night that she will be okay. That she will overcome this pain she is feeling.
"I am always going to worry." I reminded her. "its one of my great talents" I forced a laugh earning a smile from her. "I will let you shower now. Come and get me if you need me" I put my hand on her arm. She nodded taking a step back making my hand fall back to my side. I waited until she closed the door before going to my bathroom.
When I got back in my bed, I snuggled under my covers hoping to get some sleep. I laid there just staring at the ceiling for I don't even know how long. I got that feeling again in the pit of my stomach that something was wrong. I should check Lauren; it will put my mind at ease seeing her sleeping then I can sleep. I got out of bed again tiptoeing down the hallway to her room. Hopeful I don't wake her up if she is sleeping.
I turned the knob opening the door slowly. I smiled softly seeing her tucked in her bed. That was until I spotted the pill bottle on the floor. "Lauren" I screamed running over to her. She made a noise but didn't open her eyes. "Laur wake up" I shook her shoulders making her open her eyes. Her pupils were dialed. "how many did you take?" she stared blankly at me. I grabbed her phone off her nightstand and called 911. I pulled her up trying to make her sit up.
"What?" her head lolled back, and her eyes fluttered.
"no, you need to stay awake" I shook her again. "you're going to be okay. I called for help" Tears slipped down my cheeks. I should have seen this coming. How did I miss this? There was no pretending it was an accident not when there was a note folded up on her nightstand next to her phone. I couldn't bring myself to open the letter. "please god don't take her" I mumbled under my breath.
