High Walls// LS

Chapter 3- Louis

Hey guys!!! Thanks so much for getting this far in the story. I'm really enjoying writing it so far, and I've currently got nothing else to do in this quarantine (it's currently spring of 2020 as I'm writing this), so plan on more chapters coming out at a steady pace.

I love Louis and Harry and they make me emotional.

We don't deserve them.

Okay that's all, thanks again.

Chapter 3 (Louis POV)

"Louis, are you absolutely positive that you are ready for this?" Niall ask, concern evident in his voice. "I'm nervous you haven't though about it long enough."

I give him a soft smile and shake my head, "No, I'm doing it. I've thought about this for the last 9 years of my life. That's long enough. I'm ready, Niall."

I finish setting up the camera and sit back on the hotel room bed, ready to use the script that I've recited in my head for the last two days.

Niall smiles, "Okay, tell me when you're ready for me to press record."

My heart is pounding so loud, it wouldn't surprise me if he could hear it, but nevertheless he encourages me and shoots me another grin.

I take a deep, shaky breath in and speak up, "I'm ready."

I watch in excitement, and honestly a little horror, as he pushes the record button on my camera and gives me a thumbs up, signaling that it has started. This is what I've been waiting for; this is what I need to do before any tours or new One Direction albums. I want to get this off my chest, I need to.

So I take a deep breath, and I start talking.

"Hey guys, it's me, Louis Tomlinson. Today I have something to tell you. For the last nine years I have lied to you all, to the media, and even to some of my close friends. But with the new year right around the corner, I feel it necessary for me to come clean with you all."

I take a deep breath and look at Niall, who holds up another thumbs up and a sympathetic smile.

"I'm bisexual. There's no use in denying it any longer. For the longest time I was scared of this video, scared of your reaction. But I'm turning a new page in my life, and I want you all to know who I truly am. I'm still the same goofy, charming mother fucker you all know and love, but I just have to be honest with you. I think I was so scared of coming out to the world because of all of the backlash I would potentially receive, but I think that we have entered an age of acceptance and love. While I know that people in my community still face hatred sometimes, I also understand now that the people who truly love me will love me no matter what gender I swing for." I take another shaky pause and close my eyes, trying to push back the tears.

"Shit," wiping my eyes as I try to continue, "I didn't know I would get emotional making this. It just feels so good to say it."

I look up at Niall standing behind the camera and he gives me a big grin, then mouths "I'm proud of you."

I smile, as tears roll down my face. "I'm bisexual, and I just thought you guys had the right to know that. I love you all, and thank you for the support that I know I will receive."

I get up off the bed and Niall turns the camera off. Then he walks around it and wraps me in a big bear hug. "Thank you for letting me be here for that. I'm so proud of you, Lou. You are so courageous and strong," he says still hugging me tight.

"Thank you for being here, Niall. I appreciate your friendship so much," I say stepping back. He leaves my room to give me much needed time to calm myself down and to upload the video.

I go on Instagram and click on the video that is now in my camera roll, and watch it again. I'm proud of myself. I take a deep breath and post it, knowing it won't be long before responses start coming in.

Tears still roll down my face, but they are happy tears. The emotions I'm feeling are so overwhelming. It's like a bag of bricks, that has held me down for so long, is finally gone.

I won't lie, there's a reason I sat down to film this video today.

Seeing Harry yesterday messed with my head. It didn't take long for all of my buried feelings to come rushing back to the surface. He's just so irresistible, such a lovely person.

We both hurt each other in the past, but yesterday I could tell he was really trying to start fresh.

My phone starts ringing and I look down to see Lottie's name across my screen. I can't help but laugh as I realize that I definitely didn't tell her I was publicly coming out today.

"Hello Lott-" I start but quickly get interrupted.

"What the hell did you just post on Instagram Louis?" Lottie screams into the phone.

I wince as her voice pierces my ears unexpectedly, "Bloody hell Lottie, you've nearly exploded my eardrum."

She laughs loudly, and orders me to explain.

"Surprise," I say with a giggle, "I decided to come out today."

"I'm so proud of you, Lou. Oh my god, has Harry seen it yet?" She asks quickly.

I let out another laugh and shake my head at her overly excited tone. "No I'm sure he hasn't Lottie, I only just uploaded it."

She huffs but then replies, "I just can't believe this. Mum would be so proud."

My eyes water at the thought of how happy my mom would have been in this moment. She wasn't pushy about it, but she always thought I should let the world know who I really am.

"I know she would. I wish she could see this, Fizzy too." I smile at the thought of my sister telling me that Harry was the "hottest hunk of man" she had ever laid eyes on, and that I'd be stupid to let him get away.

Laughing again, I thanked her for calling me and we said our goodbyes.

Well, that was the first of many reactions I am about to receive.

It's going to be a long day.