Once Upon A Mistake (Mistake #1)

Chapter 27

SPG

I don't know what to say, all this time he knew yet.. he didn't changed. Not a bit. Hindi niya 'ko nilayuan. He's not scared, he's more terrified to lose me?
Why would he lose me? I'm not his to begin with so he can't lose me.

"You hired men to gather information about me?" I asked, I would lie if I'll say I'm calm.

"I did.. I was curious about my uncle's secretary. She's eighteen yet.. she's working in our company, uncle really wanted to adopt her when she was fourteen." Umiling ako before I sarcastically smiled.

Lies.. lies..

"No that's not the reason, buwan. Just admit it. Ina- akala mo din na kabit ako ng tito mo." Funny, that's my father buwan. That's my fucking father!

And.. you. You are my fucking cousin.

"It's disgusting to fall for you, but that's more disgusting." I said, Kinabig ko ang kamay niyang naka hawak na sa kamay ko.

I always want to hold those.

I looked at him as I notice he's annoyed eyes. That's nice buwan. Hate me.

Hate me, that's what you always felt for me right?

Naglakad na 'ko palayo, only this time. Hindi ako pinigilan ng kamay niya but he's words did.

It took my breath away in the blink of an eye,

"It's okay, I still love you. I don't care about your thoughts or whatever is your opinion about me. I love you miracle."

That words.. I never heard of anyone, those words I've been yearning to hear. I'm supposed to be disgusted, scared.. but those words are making me feel like.. a woman who felt so loved.

In that moment I couldn't feel anything but.. felt, happy.

But I.. didn't know those words are true. I doubt it, I'm doubting he's feelings.. but why, I'm feeling this over and over again.

Did he poison me? Ginayuma niya ba ako? No, heil. You are being crazy!

No He's crazy.. how can he say that when he have a girlfriend. How can he say that easily.. while I'm gonna die someday and never wanting to say to him what I truly feel.

Focus on this, chin up. Heil. You won't be dumb for those words. You need to make him hate you before it gets worst.

Pinunasan ko ang tumulong luha sa mata ko bago ko siya hinarap ulit.

"Let me get this clear for you, buwan. I will be straight forward." Ngumiti ako but I know how this is gonna hurt so bad.

"You are always straightforward." He answered.

Hinawakan ko ang dalawa niyang kamay at tinignan siyang mabuti. I will end this now. This sick love for you.

I'm gonna break.. I'm going to be in pain, even though I'm in pain everyday. Every day I think of us but this is for the sake of us and for our family.

Tumingin siya sa 'kin pabalik, wala ng bakas ng inis ang kanyang mga mata. Hindi ko na mabasa ang ekspresyon niya pero tatapusin ko na 'to sa salita.

"I don't feel.. the same. Mielo, I'm not accepting your stupid love.. because this is all bullshit!" I push his chest but that didn't move him, even a little.

"I don't like you.. you know that right? From the very beginning, I'm sure you know what I feel for you. You're just a bug who's fucking bugging my life." Pinunasan ko ulit ang tumulong luha sa bwisit 'kong mata.

I push him again but this time he move, napa upo siya sa upuan ko kanina. I guess he's getting scared. Nanghihina na siya at nakayuko but I want him to hate me more.

I want him to hate me more.. more than I hate myself.

".. so please.. please! Stop. Trying. To. Hard. To fuck. My. Fucking. Life." I said with a final tone before I lift his chin.

"I'm sorry but I—" fuck your sorry, fuck this life.

I want you to hate me, but I guess.. I'm hating myself more and I'm gonna hate myself the most because right now I'm losing my mind.

and without any fucking hesitation, without those fucking things on my mind, without those fucking cousin things, without his fucking felicia..

I kiss him. I don't want to hear his voice after what stupid lies I said and I'm thinking that I want to die after this.

This is supposed to be a smack but our kiss is getting deep, he's kissing me back and I can't stop responding.

He let his shoulder snake into my waist and gently let me seat to his lap while my fingers is slowly running through his brown hair. I've kissed a lot of guys before but I never felt this feeling. It's like I wanted to give him all that I've got, I wanted him to feel me.

I'm aware that we are at the hospital's hallway but all I can think right now is his kisses and his hands that is now slowly getting inside my shirt. I completely lose my mind when I felt his hard manhood under me.

I moaned softly, when he's hands finally reach my boobs. He's finger slowly draw a circle in the side of my nipple while his kisses is now traveling in my neck.

I was shock when he puts a hickey in my collar bone, and that was the moment I finally let let him stop.

This is messed up!

"B-buwan.. S-stop.." I don't want this to end but this is really fucked up!

Umiwas ako sa halik niya.

"That's just— that.. umm." I can't think any reason! Bakit ko ginawa yun!

What I'm gonna say?! That.. that was just a mistake? I didn't meant to.. no no..

"L-listen!" I panicked and was about to stand up but he made me seat again.

"Let me go! I will explain okay? That's.. is.. oh my arms i—it's bleeding.." I tried to act hurt, I cuss when he still didn't want me to stand up.

He looked at me with his burning eyes and caressed my face,

"I love you, Miracle and those word you said didn't even make me hate you. Not. Even. A. Little." He kiss me at my forehead while my tears are now falling of what he said.

Because of my tears, nahiya akong makita niya ang itsura ko so I hugged him and hide my face on his chest while I cried.

I'm crying because I'm not regretting this. I'm crying because I'm happy. I'm happy.

"Listen," he patted my head.

"I love your flaws, I love your beauty, I love you inside out, I love everything about you. The moment I saw you, with tito. I did show you some ignorance. That's because I'm jealous, I'm so jealous that you are my Tito's secretary and I'm mad because he's treating you like a family and I don't want you to be one of my family." I cried harder when I heard his last words about family.

"I don't want you to be one of my family, miracle. I want us to build a family."

He lifted my fucked up face and remove my tears with his thumb,

"Damn! I made the queen of the gang cried." I rolled my eyes even though it's sore.

"But I'm willing to take the risk." He whispered, before he hugged me back.

I can't really control myself, so I think  It's time to be with myself. I'm gonna do what my heart wants to. For once, I'm going to cooperate with this stupid.. feeling.

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