MissUnderstood(August Alsina Love Story)

Chapter 46

Kayla's P.O.V

I woke up and August was holding me knocked out....... I smiled and turned around but his arm was still around my stomach......he groaned and pulled me closer to him....... I grabbed my phone and Chanel texted me

Chanel: what's up

I put my phone back down because I didn't wanna talk to anybody right now......

August: you ight ma

I turned back around and climbed up so I could face him, I played in his hair thinking about last night.....

August: you still mad at me

Me: a little .....

August: give me a week

Me: nd what

August: I promise you I won't go nowhere near da trap house fo a whole weak

Me: .......*sticks out my pinky* promise

He put up his pinky finger and wrapped it around mine yanking me down my my finger and he pecked my lips

August: I promise

Me: that's a good start...*smile*

August: I thought about it

Me: see what being in the quiet darkness can do

August: that's what chu was tryin ta do

Me: I didn't try.............I did

August: what does bein in the dark with no sound do to you

Me: ..............because before my dad died I couldn't be in the dark , because I was too scared, nd I would never sit in silence.........after he died I was so depressed, so I locked my self in the closet and turned off the light and just closed my eyes tightly .....so scared, but if you pay attention hard enough the quietness screams the truth.....it was so quiet I could hear my self breathing, then I just panicked and started yelling and kicking and I forgot I was locked in so I laid on my back and just stared at nothing and thought about everything .....I couldn't see so I wasn't afraid nd I was in my own thoughts after that day when my mom opened the door whenever I felt overwhelmed, or so angry, or depressed or sad or If I just didn't know what to do,being in the dark and quietness makes me think......nd i always come out with a solution

August:.............can u tell me, ......ya know everything you've been though

Me: I was cool before my dad died......I don't think you know how it feels, to have a part of your heart gone........after that, I've I've had multiple anxiety attaches, I've had a couple sizers ......suicidal thoughts........*tearin* I was just feeling like there was no need to live after he died.........,it was hard because no Matter how hard I tried to put a smile on my face..... I was never happy......it took me a year and a half to get together......... I never wanna go through something like that again

August: * pulling me down* you won't...........*thinking* anxiety attacks, seizures, and thinking bout ending ya life.........I woulda neva thought

Me: it was hard.....to get back together.......pills nd therapy, hospital visits nd all

August: you need ta make a promise me somethin

Me: what

August: nevaa evaaa evaaaaaa try ta kill yo self

Me:* holding his hand* I promise

August: * speaking low * I don't know what I'd do if i found out you was gone fo good

Me: do you care that much?

August: that ain't even a question......... Of course I care

Me: *brushing my nose on his* I never wanna break up