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Taehyung considers himself the luckiest man in the world for several reasons; the biggest being that he was given the chance to be part of Bangtan, a band that helps people with their daily struggles through the music they make. Another would be that he is well supported monetarily and is able to support his loved ones through the success the band has acquired. Slightly more selfish of a reason he thinks, Taehyung considers himself lucky because he is able to do things he would never have been able to do if not for Bangtan's success.

Things such as to enjoy the cool breeze against his skin on a hot L.A. day after handing out fliers to anyone who would take them all morning.

Things such as feel on top of the world, unstoppable and weightless while thousands around him sing and cheer and feel just as lighthearted as he does during concert.

Things such as see the stars twinkle brightly in depth of Malta's night sky. Or in that very same place, the way sun shone through the trees to dapple itself along Hoseok's bare arm, trailing up his golden skin where it rested gently upon his soft cheeks as the rays gently weaved themselves through dark curls.

Things such Hoseok's smile, his laugh, the forehead kisses he receives from the other, the hugs, the midnight cuddles, the "friend dates" , the....

Things such as Hoseok.

To others, it may have seemed that Taehyung and Hoseok were just very close friends. For Taehyung, however, he was undeniably and irrevocably in love with his bandmate or everything about him. To lay out all the things he had memorized and fallen in love with over and over again about his hyung were infinite - so it is much easier in his opinion to just say everything.

To say that Tae's feelings had started the moment he met Hoseok would be downright incorrect, for the love that had buried itself deep within the depths of his heart had taken years to bloom and come into perfect fruition - not just a simple childhood crush based upon looks and a handful of information about the other. His love was deep seeded, based upon oodles of knowledge, years of companionship and many nights awake with each other - limbs tightly entwined and body heat shared as whispered fears and hopes floated between them. Those nights were Taehyung's favorites, to him it felt like nothing else mattered in the world but the two of them wrapped around each other - especially when moments so quiet and tender were few and far between.

Moments such as the one Taehyung found himself in currently; buried beneath at least two of the softest blanket he'd ever encounted, his being wrapped within Hoseok's calming ocean-breeze and vanilla scent, said man tucked beneath his chin as they comfortably laid with one another. It had been light outside for many hours already, the sun having crept over the two steadily as the morning began to trickle into afternoon. The young singer has been awake for some time now, but his hyung had yet to show even the smallest sign of waking from his comatose-state slumber. Tae didn't mind, however - never has, never will - and was perfectly content to lay with his left arm asleep and bladder about to burst if he was able to hold his Hobi in his arms for just a little while longer.

His time spend lying like this wasn't wasted on staring at the ceiling, but spent thinking on the human draped over his chest. Taehyung thought about how he'd give the world to his Hoseokkie-hyung, has tried many times. About the little dimples pressed in beside his lips as if God himself gently poked him every time he smiled. His smile? It never failed to make Taehyung feel as if he were going to faint from the butterflies kicking up in his chest. The heart shape of his lips and the tiny mole placed on top alone were enough to make the younger feel faint of heart. There were even times he thought on how he'd leave the celebrity world and all of his possessions behind if the older asked - in fact, he doesn't think that there'd be anything he wouldn't do if asked by the other. He was hopelessly in love with the dancer and didn't have a single problem with it.

Although, there was one problem. Even though he was very open with his effection - both through words and through actions - he felt as if his love had no effect at all on his hyung. There have been and (at least in Taehyung's mind) will continue to be nights where he lays alone in his own bed thinking about how his endeavor to gain Hoseok's love may turn out to be fruitless. Were his gestures returned? With enthusiasm. However, Tae couldn't help but feel it was just platonic love the other had always garnered toward him.

Why would it be any different? He thought. Hoseokkie-hyung is kind and loving to everyone.

He thought many things, had many ideas and notions that his love never be returned - but that didn't keep him away. Taehyung loved his Hoseokkie-hyung with his whole being, all he wanted to do was to be with him as they grew old - no matter what - and he was fully prepared to watch the other get married and create a life without him as long as he could stay by Hobi's side.

Would it hurt him?

Yes of course it would, but all Taehyung ever wanted was to see his hyung - all of his hyungs, and Jungkookie too - unbashedly happy for the rest of their lives. Who was he to step in the way of true love should Hoseok find it in someone else?

Such thoughts would usually dissipate at the shake of his head, but they always sat in the back of his mind ready to subdue his thoughts during quiet moments alone.

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[ First chapter done!]