UltraViolet

Chapter 10

Saturday morning I was up early to go shopping with Ella, in the hopes of finding something cute to wear to Aaron's party.

Seeing as I never used to go to parties, if I didn't find something cute to buy then I'd have to wear something from old Violet's wardrobe, and if that were the case then I'd rather not go.
My old style consisted of jeans and baggy plain T-shirt's, which I used to love purely because they were boring and showed little to no personality. I was too afraid to show my likes and dislikes in case I got judged for it, but now I was more confident in my skin and I no longer wanted to be a people pleaser. People were either going to like me or not and I've learnt that is ok.

'So you were quiet last night. I called you on my break at work but you didn't answer.' Ella said as we exited the first shop with little success.
'What did you get up to?'

'Oh, I uh, watched a film with Zac.' I tried to say it casually, as if spending my Friday night alone with Zac was a common occurrence but Ella still looked surprised.

'Really? Was that not awkward?'

Ok, so here's the thing. I hadn't exactly told Ella or Oli about Zac and I being on friendly terms. It wasn't that I wanted to hide it from them, it was more that if I told them how we broke the ice then I'd need to explain my recent run ins with Mike and I wasn't ready to do that yet. I felt like I'd already dealt with it by confiding in Zac. I'd tell them eventually but now wasn't the right time.

So instead I came back with a vague reply.
'Actually no. I guess you can say we've kind of called a truce.'

'Wow, I bet that pained him.' Ella snorted.

As Ella and I had been best friends for years she'd heard all about how I thought Zac was a miserable asshole. I guess by association he pretty much ignored Ella as well so I wasn't surprised that she thought the idea comical. Little did she know that becoming almost, kinda friends, was actually a lot easier than I thought it would be.

'So, are you excited for tonight?' She said, changing the subject.

'Embarrassingly excited actually. I guess I'm just really hoping to have fun. I'm not going to lie, I'm also kind of nervous.'

'I get nervous as well but don't worry it's going to be epic!' She reassured. 'What about Kane?'

As we walked into the next clothes shop I almost instantly made a beeline for a top I liked the look of.
'What about him?' I said picking the top up from the clothes rail and holding up to take a better look.

Ella stole the top from my hand and forced me to look at her.
'Gosh you're holding your cards very close to your chest young lady and I don't like it.'

'Ok ok.' I rolled my eyes and successfully grabbed the top back from her. After taking one last look I sighed and decided it wasn't for me.
'I guess I just still don't know. I mean I'd need to be blind not to see his good looks and we get along so well but..I don't know. Maybe because last year when we met he was just automatically a friend, I'd never thought he'd think of me as anything else. So now he's in that box, it's going to take a bit longer to take him out again. Does that make sense?'

'Yeah I understand.' Moving on to the next rail Ella pulled a dress out and held it up to herself.
'You want my opinion?' I nodded for her to go on. 'I think you're really overthinking it. Look, at the moment you just have a suspicion, so I think you should just go with the flow and see how you feel. When I'm not sure how I feel about someone I usually wait to see if they kiss me. If they do you find out pretty quickly if you feel something or not. If you're not into it just be honest and say there's no spark. That's not being a bitch, you're just being honest.'