Sebbs pov:
I was still awake and I just couldn't stop thinking about Monty and that kiss I'm not gay but I still kissed him back and I messed him up I want to go see if he's ok I want to say sorry and that he's my best friend I don't want him to move out and I don't want to loose him but if he's told loz what I said and if she's still there everyone will hate me , I took that chance and walked to monty,s room and peeked through the door he was alone but also asleep I walked towards him and just looked at him he was sound asleep and so adorable , I couldn't help but stare omg what am I doing I'm straight I'm into girls not boys this is just because he's my bestfriend BEST friend I woke him up and he yawned while waking up put on his glasses and looked up at me like a puppy just so innocently omg he's so cute wait what no sebb stop "sebb what are you doing it's 1am" I turned on the lights and looked at him in his eyes "pull up your sleeves" he looks up at me scared "what no why" he looked so panicked and then I quickly grabbed his hand and pulled his sleeves up staring at his arms wich where covered in cuts "sebb I" then I cut him off "Monty I was just pissed if I ment nothing I said ok your my bestfriend and I love you so much and I can't loose you I need you and need you to be safe" he looked at me with tears running down his face "I'm sorry for everything I've totally ruined our friendship I'm not even gay" I look at him and wipe away his tears " I know I'm sorry too it's my fault and you haven't ruined our friendship ok" I hugged him and sat back still close to him we're both breathing deeply I can see monty holding himself back I just keep looking at his lips and then I feel myself push forward and all of a sudden I push my lips on his , I don't know what's happening but I like it and I don't want to stop I just keep kissing him as he puts his hands on my neck and I put my hands through his hair and back I just enjoy the moment he then pushed away and Puts his head against the wall " I think I'm broken sebb" I look at him tearing up and grab his head "your not broken your just going through stuff and I'm going to help you" i notice that Disney+ was on the screen and I grabbed the remote and put Hannah Montana on wich is what we've been watching together I lay next to him and put my hand in his hair and just rub I look at him watching the show and put my arm down what did I just do I totally ignoring I just kissed a boy he put his head on my chest and drifts asleep I'm just ignoring the show and watching monty sleep he's so cute ,what am i doing he's a boy and I've only dated girls before I know I'm straight
I'm sorry if you've actually read this shit it's so bad but I'm only playing around I love writing I'm just not good
