Fame, Money, Feelings

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That eye contact with Tony made me feel some type of way, after what I said at the Hospital, I realized that I broke his heart.... should I feel bad? He hurted me first, should I give him a chance to explain himself? I need someone by my side in these moments. I get lost in my thoughts looking at outside out the window
"We are here" Dixie said cause I'm pretty sure I was lost in something
"Oh sorry" I excuse myself and they nod. We get inside of my department and they make their selfs at home
"Hey girls can we talk?" I say sitting down on my bed crossing my legs and playing with my fingers
"Yeah sure" they give me a little smile and sat around me
"I- well Tony" I say Tony like I was out of breath
"What about him?" They all looked at each other
"To be honest, I miss Tony and I realized that what I said at the hospital hurt him but it also hurt me" I mutter the last part
"Well what you said" Dixie spoke
"That I didn't love him anymore" I put my head down
"Honey you don't have to worry, I'm sure you didn't mean that, you may said that cause of all the stress you are having" Avani said putting her arm around my neck and giving me a little hug
" Yeah I didn't mean it but- but it was the heat of the moment and it caused me to say that" my voice cracked
"I'm sure he know that you said that with no meaning" Charli knee what I said cause she was there
"S-should I talk to him" I lift my head up
"If you want. We know that you guys loved each other very much" Avani assured me
"I'll be thinking about it" I sigh and told them to change the subject. It much more late and they decided to leave now. I plop on my bed and look at the ceiling, I do love Tony very much and I need him more than ever, but what really hurts me we're the words he told me the day of the accident, it was like a bullet going thru me and just stayed there..... Something hit me..
" I should right a sing if I how I feel " I say getting up off my bed and get my note book where I always write my songs. It was 3:00am and just had to get out all of my feelings in this song.
Rise and shine ( 😂) I wake up at the sunlight hitting me, I get up and brush my teeth and face and made myself some cereal. When I was done writing my song I decided that I'll work things with Tony and Addison, they are my friends almost family and I just really need them right now. I quickly change grab my phone put it in my pocket and get in my car. When I get there I burst the door open and see everyone having breakfast
"Maya?" Chase looked at me confused
"Is Tony here?" I ask and they I se everyone's eyes wide
"Yeah he's upstairs in his room" Ondreaz pointed upstairs
"I'll be back" I say rushing upstairs. I get to his door and I start to feel regret take over me, I was about to live when Tony opens his door and sees me standing there
"Maya?" He stood In the door way
"I'm sorry for some reason I thought it was room" I lied and he just gave me a confused look, I rush down the stairs wanted to leave but Tayler stopped me..