She's Suicidal

Three

After the whole kiss scene, we went straight over to my house. Nothing else happened, it was just the kiss. The reason why we went to my house was because I finally decided to let him help me. I need all the help I'm offered.

After hours of him helping me out with me complaining and him finishing all my snacks, my assignment looked incredible, if I do say so myself. I'm happy and proud of myself to say the least. I'm sure I'm going to pass this one. Yeah , of course I couldn't have achieved such excellence without stalker boy but that's not the point. The point here is that I'm a genius!!

After we finished up tidying up the mess he made I accompanied him half way to his house. It was a little late and I wasn't planning on hanging out with him or anything along those lines, so he had-to-go. He isn't such horrible company after all. He's funny and - I don't know - cool I guess but I just didn't want to jump into a friendship so quickly. He helped me with my school work and that's just about enough.

Once I had returned home I made myself some beef lasagne and a huge mug of coffee because I'm such an addict, jokes, I needed the caffeine to keep me focused on the planning ahead.

I went to my office because thats where I do all my planning and serious stuff. You know ? Boss girl stuff hehe. I'm getting really bored with this whole routine I've developed throughout time. I honest missed my old life. It was awesome! But that's a story for another day yeah? Good.

I just hate the path it led me to. And since I can't go to the west side anymore or hang out with any of my friends (well they aren't my friends anymore) from that side too ,I had to make things work for me this side. And that's what my plan is all about. Turning things around , as discreetly as possible if I might add.

First idea was to get a job. Pretty cliche , I know but it's a great way to meet new people. I'm lazy though so I dont know how this is going to work out. I can go for dance classes? I've been wanting to get back to dance for a while now and I think this will be the perfect excuse for me to do so. I use to do ballet from the ages of five up until I fourteen. I dont like school parties so that's a no. They're too boring. I need excitement , something thrilling and wild.

I should probably go out and actually explore this side, the north side that is. I spent so much time in the west side that I neglected the side I was actually living in. Unless I had work this side. My whole life was in the west. It was wild there. But that chapter is closed.

Maybe I could ask my new "friend" for some ideas or a tour around town. That would also give me the opportunity to get to know more about him. He still could be a regular guy - predictable so getting to know him would give me more reason to tell him to fuck-off or more reason to maybe keep him in my life and that's a big MAYBE.

After I write down a couple of ideas and a couple of doodles here and there I resort to reading. I've been reading 'The Awakening' for a couple of days now and its quite a good book so maybe I could get that finished sooner than expected. Its one of those unreasonably thick books.