She's Suicidal

ten

I woke up with Nephine all tangled up on me. All warm and fuzzy haha. His bare skin against my revealed skin feels great and the duvet and ugh this is awesome. The sun is peircing through my window. It's probably around five am since that's when the sun rises.

I get this GEM off on me and go get my hygiene on in the bathroom. Yay hygiene!! I take a bath and go do some morning yoga with some relaxing music in the background because why not.

The thought of last nights events flash in my head and I can't help but smile thinking about our conversation. Those are the kind of conversations i lived for. Listening to someone confidently voice out their opinion on something they have little power is really cool. Also knowing that there is still hope out there and that there are still people who believe in love.

"Hey, you're up early" Nephine perks up by the door.

"Morning. Yeah , I'm an early bird. I can't sleep past 6. Habit." I smile at him

He smiles back , "Oh that's pretty cool. I usually wake up around 6. So you do yoga every morning then ?"

"Uh not really. Sometimes. I dont have proper plannings for my mornings. Just Sunday where I have a proper planned morning" I finish up with my last stance and then dab a towel on my face.

"Hm cool. You want some breakfast?" , he asks

"No thanks. I'll just make a smoothie." I give him a tight smile

"May I get a hug ?" He says coming towards me

"Haha you're so random. Yeah , sure I guess so." I say meeting him half way and he engulfs me in a bear hug. Weirdo.

Later On That Day

Nephine left a few minutes ago. Well we just hung out today. Watched some movies, ate , read books, played outside with Bobby , you know , the good stuff. The boys wanted to come over but he said no. Why? I have no idea but i promised them we could hang out some other time.

Having Nephine in my house got me feeling some type of way. Now that he's not here it kinda feels lonely. Dont like this at all. I think I need to sell this house now. It's got too many memories.

Maybe get an apartment close to school. Yeah, I'll do that.

I call a guy I know who sells houses , Dave , and he says he'll put my house on market for me and that I don't have to worry about anything.

I've known Dave for a couple years now and we're cool. He tells me that he could have the house sold by next week Wednesday. That sounds great! He also found me multiple options for apartments in my choice. I told him I want a one bedroom , one bathroom , kitchen and living room with a spare room for whatever and maybe a balcony as well. Nothing hectic. I don't care how small it is as long as its got what I need and it looks modern and simple.

My house is apparently worth 200 000 and I'm good with that. Its in good shape of course and its got good space.

Dave hooks me up with another guy , Kevin , so I can sell most of my furniture.

This is harder than I thought. My library is basically my sanctuary and giving it all away is gonna be really hard and so I get an idea! Maybe I should open up a book shop. That way I can still read some of the books since they obviously wont all sell out af the same time. I can let go of the books in a good pace. I have some really old books that are worth a lot , originals ,and some recent ones too. Some of the books I have can't be found anywhere in the world anymore and I think that's a bonus. That way I can pass on my love for books to others as well! Great,I'm so smart.

I have the money to start up. I just need to find a place and some employees. Maybe 3 - one for register , one librarian, and a cleaner. The other things I can do myself.

I call up Kevin and he says I should take pictures of things I want sold via email and we'll take it from there. I do that and he calls me up again and tells me he'll be here tomorrow to get half the stuff.

I search for some building up for sale nearby. And lucky me there's one near an apartment Dave said is available for me. Its not close to school but its got what I need. I think I'll just do home schooling for here on. That's more reasonable for me now since I genuinely dont see the need for me to be there when I can be here and get so much done with home schooling.

It's around 23:30 when I'm done with everything. My business plan included and I've decided to hire four employees two of which are still young , nineteen and twenty one and the other two are a bit older , one in their late twenty and the other is thirty five but nothing is final yet until I get the building and the paperwork.

What a productive day this turned out to be. I'm sure gonna miss this place a little but it's chapter is over.