Love is Clueless

Chapter 15

I roll over and scratch my nose, only to feel discomfort in between my legs. I groan when all the memories of what happened last night popped into my head. I open my eyes to see Jack awake looking at me with his head resting on his propped up arm.

"Good morning" he says in a hot morning voice, has his voice always been this hot in the mornings?

"Good morning" I reply

He stands up and goes into the bathroom. I sit up letting the blankets fall, feeling a cold breeze. I look down and realize I'm still naked from last night. I reach down on the ground and grab my shirt before pulling it over my head. I see my sweat pants a few feet away and stand up to grab them as well.

After I pull on my sweatpants I find my bra, but can't find my underwear anywhere. Screw it I thought before leaving his room and going into mine.

Taking a quick shower, I jump out and put on my jeans with a light blue T-shirt. Brushing my hair and teeth, I walk out of the bathroom and head downstairs for breakfast. Sitting at the Kitchen table is Austin and Tom.

"Good morning boys" I greet while pouring myself a cup of coffee.

"Good morning" They both grumble not wanting to be awake at the moment.

Jack walks into the kitchen and stands next to me, he hands me my underwear from last night. "These we're in my room" He says with a smirk. I grab them from his hand and take them to the laundry room.

Walking back into the kitchen Tom and Austin look at me, thiers eyes holding amusement and lips holding a smirk. "What?" I ask.

"Nothing, just that someone had fun last night." Tom says.

"He did laundry last, they must have ended up in his basket." I replied as I poured myself a bowl of cereal. Giving a quick glance at Jack, I see a look of hurt on his face, but I ignore it.

The rest of the day the tension between me and Jack is suffocating. I didn't know how to handle this morning's situation, I just said the first thing that came to mind.

Sitting down at dinner, me and Jack never directly talk to one another. After everyone finishes what they are eating, it is mine and Jacks turn to clean the kitchen and do the dishes. Seeing Austin walk up stairs I stop washing the dishes and turn to Jack. "I'm sorry" I tell him.

"Do you regret it?" He asks not turning to face me while he washes the counter.

"No" I tell him honestly. "I just thought we should talk about it before everyone knows."

"What about it do you need to talk about?" He asks while finally turning to face me "We had sex last night. It was great, to be honest."

"It was great. But where is this going? What are we going to be? Just friends? I didn't know if you would regret it the next morning." I say "I basically threw myself at you last night."

"If I didn't want to do it, then I would have stopped you and said to go to bed." He yells at me

"I can't read your mind" I scowled "I didn't know if you felt pressured to do it or if you actually wanted to do it."

"Are you blind, Reign?!" He yells and I think the whole neighborhood heard him

"What?" I ask him

"I have liked you for a while, why would I regret it?" He replied with a calmer voice"I'm head over heels for you and you barely even bat an eyelash at me"

"I barely notice you!! I feel myself falling more for you everyday!" I yell at him "It scares the shit out of me."

"Then fall for me, because I want to catch you." He softly says standing closer to me and cupping my cheek.

"I wouldn't survive if you died. I don't think I can let myself fall for you." I whisper under my breath.

He pulls me closer to him and his lips brush mine as we start to breath heavier. Just before we fully kiss I pull away. "I can't just yet." I say then walk out of the front door.

Going over to the horses, I sit in Warren's stall looking up at him as he just stands there.

"What if it was a mistake? What if he didn't really die by some miracle and he comes home? What if this is all a dream and I wake up still pregnant and in his arms?" I ask to myself

"You can't focus on the what ifs" I heard from the gate.

I look up to see Ashley standing there, I didn't even hear her come in. "What are you doing here?" I ask her

"Well you see," she begins, then opens the pen and closes it once she is inside and comes to sit next to me, "I came to talk to my sister for advice when I ran into Jack. He told me you left but I knew something happened and that you would walk away."

"What did you need advice on?" I ask trying to move her away from the topic. I'm not sure that I'm ready to talk about it.

"Don't change the subject. Tell me what happened." She demands me.

I sit there and tell her everything that happened from me telling him what happened with Daniel to us ending up in bed, all the way to what happened in the kitchen.

"You messed up," she tells me "You need to go in there and give that man a chance to show you, you can have a future. You will always love Daniel but you can. You can love him as well." After saying that she gets up and leaves me to stew in my thoughts.  It's hard to let my self fall   For him when my head and heart are conflicted between 2 people, the past and the future.