Love is Clueless

Chapter 23

Waking up I run into the bathroom and throw up what little I had left in my stomach. I sit down on the floor after flushing the toilet and take a breath.

Standing up I go and brush my teeth, after getting them brushed I decided to throw on a black pair of leggings with a baggy red t-shirt, I wish jack would have said something, anything. I know I told him to take a while to come to terms with it but I thought he would of sooner than later. I push away my thoughts and walk down stairs.

When I make it down the stairs, I walk into the kitchen to get breakfast started. Once I get there, Jack is standing by the counter, but when he looks up at me he just stares for a second and then walks into the living room.

As much as it's killing me with him ignoring me, I have to understand that it's a lot to process.

I walk to the fridge and pull out eggs, bacon, Sausage and biscuits, then get started. It took about 20 minutes to get all the food cooked and sat at the table.

By the time I was done getting everyone's orange juice out, the guys and Savannah all gather in and take their seats in the dinning room, including Jack.

I sit down on one side and am a bit hurt when Jack decides to sit on the opposite side, making Tom have to sit beside me.

I take a quick glance at Jack, to see him talking with Austin. At first he didn't want him to live here, but now he'd rather sit by him then to sit by me, and that's what hurts.

All threw dinner, I hadn't spoke instead I silently listened to everyone else and hoped that things would turn good soon, I don't know how much more I can handle.

Once every one left the dinning room, I was washing the dishes which usually me and Jack do together but he's in the living room watching a movie with the rest of the group.

I was putting the dishes away when someone came in the kitchen and spoke up. I turned around to see Savannah standing across the counter from me.

"What's going on between you and Jack"she questioned

I felt a few tears fall when she brought Jack up, as soon as Savannah saw the first tear fall she gathered me into a hug while I cried on her shoulder and whispered in her ear "I'm pregnant"
She pulled away and stared at me in shock, it took a few seconds to register and she said "you're what?"

I gave her a small smile and repeated "I'm pregnant"

She stares at me with a shocked expression on her face, keeping me at arms length.

"What?" She whispers "What happened?"

"I told him yesterday," I hiccup "I told him to take his time to grasp the idea but I didn't think he would ignore me."

"That doesn't make any sense, he use to be so excited about having kids," She tells me.

"He what?" I ask "He told me he wasn't ready just yet and would like to wait a while."

Before I knew what happened, Savannah walks into the living room and stands in front of the TV blocking all the boys view.

"What the hell is wrong with you?' she yells at Jack

"What are you talking about?" he asks her

She huffs taking a step towards him livid, when Daniel stands in front of her so she can't reach Jack. "Your girl is in there pregnant and you are ignoring her?"

Jack stands up "This is none of your business Savanna stay out of it,"

"You're pregnant" Austin and Daniel Yell at the same time.

"Guys just calm down, it's not that big of a deal." I tell them trying to call them all down.

Jack stands up "This is why I'm not talking to you about this, you don't think this is a big deal" I felt a pang in my heart as his words left his mouth.

"that's because if I make it a big deal, you will leave." I yell at him "Just like last night"

"I didn't leave last night" He looks at me "You did"

"And I sat on the porch for 10 minutes waiting for you to come after me" I scream and start to cry.

"Just shut up and go back to not talking to me" I tell him, and then walk into the other room.

"Run away like you always do," jack shouts after.

I stop in my track and walk back over to him. When I reach him I start poking him in the chest with every word I say. "I walk away so my stress levels go down, I won't survive this time if I loose this baby and I'll be damned if I loose this because of you" I shout into his face.

I step back and look up at his face, taking deep breathes in knowing everyone in the room was looking at us.

"Choose now." I tell him

He looks at me "Between what?"

"If you want this baby or not, I want an answer right this minute or you can get out of my house and I will raise this baby alone." I tell him, crossing my arms over my chest as he sits down and stares at me shocked.

I have a thousand feelings running threw me, being hormonal and having a conversation like this is not good. I'm scared of his answer, because who knows what he will say if he's not ready to be father.