Love is Clueless

Chapter 16

It's official, I want him in my life. Not just as a friend either, I want him to be my husband. I just want him. But I messed up, I don't know how I can fix this either. I want to tell him, let him know that he's one of the best things to happen to me and I can't just loose him. I've lost too much already.

I am broke out of my train of thought when Austin stands up "I won't be here for dinner tonight, I'm going over to Toms." He tells me before sending me a wink.

Tonight's dinner will be just between me and Jack. Thinking of having dinner with just me and Jack,  I get an idea. "I'll be back in a little while Jack" I yell knowing he won't respond before grabbing my keys, sliding on my tennis shoes and heading to my truck.

Arriving at the store I buy the essentials that I need for tonight. Then check out and head back home.

Once I pull into the driveway, I grab the groceries and head for the kitchen. While I'm putting everything away, Jack walks out of his room. "Where are you going?" I ask, biting my bottom lip hoping he doesn't ignore me this time.

He pauses as his arm is extended for the door handle "out" he replies.

"Please be back before dinner," I say with a pleading look on my face, he turns his head and looks at me "I'll be home by 7" He says and walks out the door.

Starting dinner I play 'cowboy casanova' on youtube. While the potatoes are boiling I grab a white table cloth and place it on the table. Sitting out two plates, and cups.

6:58 and I have everything set up for tonight. Hopefully this is enough I thought to myself, waiting for him to get home. I had set out our food and a bottle of wine for me and a bottle of beer for him.

7:30 passes and he is still not here, the food starts to get cold and I have doubts he's not coming.

8:30 and he is still not here. I finish off my third glass of wine before starting to clean the kitchen.

9:10 comes and I know for sure he isn't coming. Picking up our food and taking care of everything. I'll just act like I didn't do any of this.

As I was finishing off the bottle and picking up the food I had set out the front door opened "I thought you sa-" my voice is caught in my throat as he walks in the door holding Savannah's hand.

He looks around at the food, where his stuff was and sees that it was just meant for the two of us. "I'm sorry, something came up" He began but I cut him off.

"You don't have to explain, I get it." I say before tipping the rest of the bottle of wine up and chug it.

"Reign it's not-" I cut him off this time.

"No, it truly is fine Jack, go have your fun for the night." I say before turning and walking to my bedroom slamming the door shut.

What the fuck is wrong with him? What's wrong with me? I only freaked out because of my past and he knows that, he said he understood and that he would always be there but where was he now? With Savannah out of all people.

We had one fight and he decided to run off to her? Did last night not mean anything to him?

Not wanting my mind to wander any further I go to my closet and grab a random t-shirt before climbing into bed. Only to be met with nightmares.

*Dream*

"Come on Daniel we have to go to the hospital." I yell back at him while heading to the car holding my stomach.

"I'm here" He yells starting the car and heading down the road.

"Be careful of the driver ahead of us" I tell his as we watch the driver sway back and forth between the lines, on an occasion moving over to the other lane.

"I'm going to pass him" Daniel tells me, I reach down to feel my belly, but am met with nothing.

"What?" I say to myself. I was just pregnant.

"Ahhhh" I scream as the car begins to roll. Looking over I see that the driver is not Daniel its Jack.

"Why couldn't you love me back?" Jack asks me sounding hurt. "What are you talking about. Jack No" I start to scream.

"At least she loved me." he says looking out of my window. Turning around I see Savannah standing outside the car.

"No, Jack.... NO" I scream

*Dream over*

I jolt awake and I'm breathing heavily. I brush my forehead just to be met with sweat. What the hell was that. Getting up I go to take a shower and wash off what ever kind of dream that was.

Getting out of the shower I put on my scrubs and let my hair stay down for a little while. I blow dry and straighten my hair after brushing my teeth. Right before I am done applying my mascara I hear a noise in my kitchen. It must be one of the boys.

I casually walk down stairs turning the corner I am met with Savannah standing by the counter drinking a cup of coffee. I look to see her clothes or lack of clothes I should say, she is wearing one of Daniels shirts with a pair of boxers on.

'it's not what it looks like' was what he was trying to say but apparently it was exactly what it looks like. How could he? After what we happened.

I scuff and she looks up at me, Jack walks out of his room with out a shirt on, I look over at him and scuff again.

"Reign," He begins

"No, its fine. You choose, we will go back to how things were." I say while walking out of the kitchen, I see that he is about to reach for me. "Don't touch me." I spit with venom in my words.

"I'm going to work." I say before walking out of the door. So much for being happy again.