Burning Wrists

~ Not Hopeless, Human ~

Chapter 3
~ Not Hopeless, Human ~
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Katsuki POV:

"I'm sorry." "I'm sorry." "I'm sorry." But he didn't do anything wrong! Katsuki screamed inwardly at himself in frustration, his hands gripping at his hair. It hurt, but Katsuki couldn't care less. He just wanted to know why. Why would his soulmate feel like that. When Katsuki finds him, he'll beat him up with all the love in the universe.

"Why would he do something like that?" Katsuki asked. He knew Shoto didn't have any more information than he did, but he couldn't help himself.

"I don't know. But we have to find out who he is. We have to help him." They were sitting on Katsuki's bed, snuggled up to each other for comfort. It was just an hour ago that their soulmate did that to themselves, and Shoto had come over to Katsuki's immediately after.

They had spent most of the time in silence, lost in their own thoughts, depending on the others presence to maintain their sanity. The few times they had spoken it had only been a few sentences. Remarks about his soulmark and how it could help them figure out who he was. So far, they had come up with nothing.

"There has to be something we can do." Katsuki refused to stop until he found his soulmate. He'd look for him until he could hold him in his arms, knowing he was safe.

"We're both alpha's, so he must be an omega. His colour is green. His symbol is a lightning bolt. But that's all we know. We never even got his name..." Shoto trailed off, his eyes fixed on a random spot on the wall.

Katsuki remembered the small sting he felt on his arm very clearly. He could only feel a fraction of what his soulmate felt, but it was enough to alert him it was happening. Then the marks started appearing. Some darker than others. Everytime he thought it had finally stopped another one showed up. It felt like hours before it ended, and an eternity before Shoto showed up. An eternity to think is never a good thing.

"What do we do, Sho?" Katsuki pulled his legs into his chest, hugging them and leaning his head on his arms. He felt like he was falling apart and if he didn't physically hold himself together he'd come undone.

"We have to stay calm. All soulmates are destined to meet. So, even if we can't track him down, we'll meet him eventually. And we can try to convince him to write us his name." Katsuki could tell that Shoto was clinging desperately to any idea he had, and he knew they were both thinking the same thing. What if we run out of time?

Katsuki got this sudden nauseous and dizzy feeling. Like he was spinning for too long and just stopped. What if we don't find him in time? He felt a tear run slowly down his cheek.

"Sho, I'm scared." Katsuki never admits to being scared of anything. Ever. But right now, he was absolutely terrified. The sight of his marked arms stuck at the back of his head despite the jumper he was wearing and he didn't want to imagine what his soulmates arms looked like. "What if we lose him? We haven't even met him yet..."

Katsuki lifted his head out from his arms and looked at the polyamory flag hanging on his wall right next to the gay one. He had bought it the moment he knew he had two soulmates, and he loved it to death. Now to think he might never get to be with his second soulmate... the thought alone made him start crying again.

"Alphas don't cry, Katsuki." His mother had been repeating the same thing to him since his second gender was revealed, he might as well have it tattooed on his hand. But now, as hard as he tried, he couldn't stop. After everything he had done to make his mother proud of him: bullying his former best friend, training his quirk day and night until he passed out from exhaustion, making the people he loved think he was a pretentious bastard, and this was what it took to make him break. If his mother saw him here, crying his eyes out in front of someone, she'd beat him black and blue.