Why him?!

Is this even real?

Joeys P.O.V

Right now, I couldn't want anything more. I'm safe. Safe and calm. I look at the clock and its 6:30, thank god its only Sunday. I would've been late to school.

I leave his bed and head to my own room to grab clothes and get a shower.

Once I'm done, I rap a towel around my waist and walk back into my room.

A yelp escapes me as I see my best friend in my room, staring at me.

He turns around when he hears me scream and he smiles.

"Hey Joseph, your mom let me in and told me you were in Austin's room-but you weren't,so I had to walk all over lookin for ya!" he says looking around my room.

"Did you not hear the shower going!?" I ask holding up my towel.

Nate walks over to me and rubs my wrists.

He knows exactly where he's touching.

He's the only one that knows about them.

"Joseph, have you made more cuts recently? I feel like there are more." He continues to rub his fingers on them.

I shake at the feeling of somebody touching my wrist. Why does he care anyway?

I mean yeah we are best friends but, if I were him, I'd run far away from anything to do with me.

"Joseph?" he says.

I snap back into reality.

"Yeah sorry ?"

"Did you make more or not?" he asks again.

I nod my head slightly but then quickly look up-only to be met by Nates lips.

Okay first- Nate has this thing were he cant control his feelings and he just kisses me.

I know its bad but he cant help it.

He kisses me forcefully which makes me back up a bit. He pushes me against the wall. I push away

"Nate whats wrong with you? Are you okay?" I ask.

He has never forced me like that before.

"Joseph, I dont know how much longer I can hold it all in. I'm in love with you and you know it.
I was okay with kisses for a while now but I'm at my limit." he says, then pushes his lips against mine, forcefully, again.

I keep trying to push him away but he is too strong. Since im against the wall, he grabs my hands and holds them with one hand. Then uses the other hand to rub all over my chest.

I keep trying to break the kiss but once again, he is stronger. His free hand, that was all over my chest, finds its way to my towel. He plays with the part of the towel around my waist.

I break the kiss...FINALLY!

"Nate s-stop, what are you doing? First my mom and Austin are home. Second, I like girls...why are you-" I get cut of by him putting his hand on my groin and rubbing.

A groan comes from my lips as I try and push his hand away.

He grins.

"It seems like you need and want this so so badly." he says, still grinning.

He takes me off the wall and into my bathroom and he locks the door.

"Nate s-stop. Austin is home and you're scaring me." I say.

"Come on buddy. For your best friend? If I dont do this, I might go crazy and kill myself. You dont want that do you?" he asks, grabbing my chin.

"N-no but-" he cuts me off.