My Crazy Addiction (Sam Wilkinson Fanfic)

Happiness ♡

It was a rainy day. The air had a little breeze that would come and go every once in a while. That's how I felt about relationships.

There I was, sitting on the porch about to light up a cigarette. Smoking. Smoking made me feel less stressful. It was more like a stress reliever. The pain I go through would numb as soon as I put the white and orange paper to my mouth. People would always tell me about "how bad smoking was" or "how you can die from lung cancer". I honestly really didn't care. If it makes me happy, then you should go on about your life.

I started smoking when i was 12. I saw bad kids do it and they got me to try it. I fell in love with it. I'm 19 now, and still do it to this day. My little cigarettes was what made me happy. The smell of tabacco makes me really happy. And if people don't like seeing me happy, they can fuck off.

The cigarette that had been burning turned into a little tiny tootsie roll like size. I sighed and crushed the burning end on the cement of the porch. I threw the dead cigarette in the bush and sat down with my hands over my face. My eyes were starting to water and I sighed. The stress I go through is like a killer.

I smoke quite a few things. I try to get my mind off of stress, family problems, and friendships going down the drain by getting high. Marijauna was another relief to happiness. It lead me to seeing what the real world was like. People have tried to get me into cocaine. I've done it twice, and I hated it. I also drink my life away with alcohol. I could feel all the smoking and drinking abusing my body. Tearing each and every part of what's left of me apart. I try to ignore it all.

I lived with my friends. They did the same stuff I did. Get high, and have a relationship. Except they knew how to keep one. I didn't. I would date the guy for like a month, then he would just leave me. I could feel all the pain running through me just sink down to my lower body. I didn't want to think about anything. All I wanted to do was get high and forget about everything else. Because that's what made me happy.