Watching from behind the glass as you said goodbye,
The tears refused to fall down my face,
One last show of strength as you walked out of my life again.
Some part of me knew this would be the final time,
As if my body could sense fate's cruel intentions before time had a chance to catch up,
I stayed at the glass waving as I waited for the fear to subside.
Your eternal grace would forever be imprinted in my mind,
The way the breeze would sweep your hair back,
The way your feet barely left an indent in the golden sand,
So unlike the footprints on my heart.
No amount of screaming or crying could bring you back,
Despite my failed efforts in the days following,
When the grey clouds fell upon me and drowned out the sunshine,
Just as fate had so cruelly done to you.
No amount of sleepless nights could stop the memories invading my mind,
No amount of skipped meals could make my empty heart any less heavy,
No amount of clothes and blankets could return to me the warmth you took with you.
I had no choice but to move on,
To continue a life without your presence,
Without your essence.
I had no choice but to continue
In a world where fake smiles became the latest accessory,
And tribute posts were the only form of public affection left to give you.
Soon I was smiling,
Knowing you would have hated to watch me fall apart at the seams,
Yet you would have found comfort in watching me turn blue for you.
Soon,
I was living a better life,
Your memory alive in my mind,
Your presence forever in my half full heart,
Your name not yet forgotten.
A better life,
Supported by the ghost of your smile,
And the ghost of love that once blossomed under the stars.
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Excerpts of A Chaotic Mind
PoetryWelcome to the inner workings of my mind. The thoughts and emotions I battle and the imaginary scenarios I dream up sometimes. Think of this is as my own public diary. . I will warn there are some themes surrounding mental health, self harming tho...
