LOVE YOURSELF: SECOND CHANCE FOR LOVE

CHAPTER ONE

(THIS IS A SEQUEL TO MY NAMJOON FANFIC
LOVE YOURSELF: FEAR IS GOING TO BE A VERY TOUCHING AND EMOTIONAL STORY,
I HOPE WHOMEVER TAKES THE TIME TO READ IT ENJOY IT THANKS SO MUCH TO THOSE WHOM SUPPORT MY STORIES)

Namjoon is a single father, he had a beautiful little girl who was 5, her mother died at childbirth due to complications, after she died at child birth it was really hard for him to get close to the baby.
The only thing that he could feel was guilt and shame, he felt that her death was his fault, his parents, the rest of Bangtan had to keep working on him until he finally accepted the child.
It was really hard on Jungkook to see how his hyeong wouldn't care for his baby, it would angered him to the point that he had said very strong words to Namjoon whom finally realized what he had being doing, he couldn't take any more harsh words from his brothers but specially from the maknae which always looked up to him.
He finally realized that he wasn't giving Jungkook the best of the examples with the way he was acting towards the little one that him and y/n had brought to the world.
His parents had help him raising her also watch over her whenever he has to leave the country for work if not them, it would be one of the boys, his parents already had retired so they would stay at his house when he was gone.

The little one was a daddy's girl for sure, her eyes shone bright whenever her father was around, she would sit with him in the studio while he worked for endless hours, most nights he would realize the time so would look for her to find her asleep by the legs of the chair, then he would cut everything off, would pick her up bringing her with him to his room, she had her own room but he wanted her close, he spend hours staring at her cute little face, she would get ahold of his finger and wouldn't let go of it through the whole night.
She treated rest of the boys like they were her uncles, she loved every single one of them, but the one she saw stars for was Jungkook, he was as much as father as Namjoon, when he wasn't around nor his parents Jungkook took care of her, she would have sleepovers with him all the time, this was one of his favorite things to do, him a his girlfriend enjoyed having her at their place, specially spoiled her rotten.

She was now 5 which meant it was time to enroll her in school, Namjoon was already losing his mind thinking about dropping his princess and leaving her on her first day of school.
- *momma*, honestly I'm not ready to leave her at that place, what am I going to do?
- Namjoon you can't stop her from growing, specially when that's a very important part of a human's life.
His mom said with a big smile as she patted her son's back.
- now you will have enough time while she is at school to do everything you have to do during the day, so when she gets off from school you can spend the night with her without any worries.
His mother said trying to help him calm down.
- but my baby momma, she is my princess.
- I know son but she has to go to school so she can be smart like you, don't you want her to be smart and successful in life when she grows older?
The way he was crying would make any one think that she was going to move out of the country.
Namjoon's mother was working hard not to laugh at her big baby having a meltdown.
- of course I do momma.
She couldn't help it any longer, laughing her life away with Namjoon's whining.
- well there is no reason for you to act like is the end of the world, she is not moving out the country.
- momma please stop teasing me.
He whined even more burying his face on her shoulder.
- there, there you still a big boy, I know y/n would be really proud of you, happy for the way you have stepped to the plate, how well you are raising your daughter.
He looked up to find his mother's eyes.
- momma it still hurts, sometimes it feels like a in trapped in a nightmare which I can't escape.
as soon as the words escape his mouth his eyes watered.
- please don't cry son, she is not gone she lives between us, she lives in your daughter, she took the decision of continuing the pregnancy knowing the risks that came with it, she loved you and her daughter, I miss her too, I learned to love her like she was my own daughter, your father too but now is time to take care of our little one, her mom asked you this before she passed away, so that's a promise that you did to her so you have to keep it until your dying day.
- I know momma, I know but I can't help but hurt every time I think about my girl, how much she loved me, how sweet and amazing she was, I wonder why she had to suffer so much, our little one is special in her own way.
- son, have you ever think about finding some else in your life?
- no momma, I feel like I would be replacing y/n.
He assure shaking his head.
- son, you are still too young to be single for the rest of your life, you need to find love again.
She said placing her hands against his cheeks.
- no momma, I'm not replacing her.

- Namjoon no one is talking about replacing her son, but you have the right to have someone, I'm pretty sure that y/n wouldn't want you to be alone forever.
- I don't think that I will ever be able to love someone else momma, look what love brought to my life pain, anguish and despair.
- do you regret meeting y/n, that's what you are telling me right now?
She asked with a stern voice.
- of course not momma, I have never once felt like that, I'm grateful for having her in my life also for giving me my little one but the emptiness in my heart after she died kills me.
- her absence is felt every day Joonie, she changed everyone's life, she made an impact in our life, that's something that you can't and shouldn't ever forget.
His mother said feelings sadness.
- momma, she suffered so much before I found her, it took us years to break down those walls, after I found her trying to take her life, when she finally felt secure enough around me gave me all her love, I thought everything was ok she got pregnant after that everything went down hill, I finally lost her momma, I miss her...

That's when the tears really poured, his mother just held him tightly.
- there baby, let it out it'll get better.
Namjoon finally let out all the years of pain that he had been bottled up deep down inside his heart after his girlfriend died, he had promise himself to stay strong for his daughter, he didn't want to see her sad, after all she didn't know anything about it but there will be a time when he will have to tell her everything about her mom specially now that she will be starting school therefore she will meet other kids with moms but she doesn't have one, how was he going to do that?, when he didn't have his life together like other people thought.
- Joonie you have to let her go baby, she would want you to move on to be happy.
- I feel like I would betray her if I fall in love with another woman.
- that is a bunch of nonsense Namjoon, y/n would have never think anything like that nor feel anything like that because she was selfless until her dying day.

AUTHO'S NOTE
Is really hard for someone that lost a S/O to move on, but is even harder to get yourself ready to open up to the possibility of finding someone knew, those who have gone thorough this situation would know...