LOVE YOURSELF: SECOND CHANCE FOR LOVE

CHAPTER TWENTY THREE

She smiled, how can he be real?, he is so different from the men I'm used to deal with.
- I never thought he could do something like this because we knew each other for a long time, we were friends for god's sakes, is like he just peed over our friendship, my feelings like they didn't matter to him.
Namjoon's heart shrugged at seen her so vulnerable,
Haneul took a deep sigh, her eyes met his when he noticed her tears, lifting his hand he dried a couple of tears that escaped.
- don't cry for that bastard, he doesn't deserve your tears.
His hand pressed against her cheek.
- Namjoon that doesn't bother me anymore, It just something that I had to experience, which helped me grow.
- well I'm glad you can see it like that now.
- how about you Namjoon, do you see yourself dating again someday?
- honestly I haven't thought about it, I would tell you that I could but maybe if the right girl comes along maybe I could date, but who knows I might never be ready again, I want to make sure that my little one has everything she needs.
- I'm pretty sure you can do that Namjoon and more but also you need to make sure that Namjoon is happy and has everything he needs.
- that's what everyone's had been saying to me lately.
- well you should listen.
- I'll make time, do you want more wine?
He said motioning to her empty glass.
- yes please I would love some more.
He nods getting from the couch to the kitchen.
She couldn't takes her eyes of him, he poured the wine. Why is he so beautiful?, in and out, the aura he carries around, such a strong, confident man, she wouldn't mind to spend the rest of her life with him, with his daughter.
- Namjoon.
- yes?
- oh is nothing, don't mind me.
- no tell me what is it?
He walked back to her handing her the glass.
- have someone ever tell you that you are really really handsome?
- not lately, even though a little person I live with tells me that I'm the most handsome dad ever.
- she is right.
Namjoon couldn't help but stare into Haneul's eyes.
She lifted her hand running it through the side of his hair.
- you are really beautiful too.
He said leaning in the place a kiss on her cheek.
As he pulled back she placed her hand behind his neck stopping him to kiss his lips instead.
Namjoon's eyes closed as soon as their lips met, she pulled him closer, Namjoon stayed still for as long as the kiss lasted.
When she pulled back, she felt embarrassed because there was no response from him to the kiss.
- oh my goodness Namjoon, I'm so sorry if I over stepped my boundaries, I thought...
He turned momentarily to place his glass down, grabbing hers at the same time, once he placed them down he turned to her, she was rambling trying to apologize, he placed his left hand on her waist, his right hand on her face bringing her close now, his lips crash against hers, she felt them bruise with the impact, swell up as he was devouring hers, her hands grip his shirt.
The kiss became more intense, heat running through their bodies, their mouths fusing, molding into one, low whimpers we're coming out of her, his hand moved to her lower back pressing her against his body.
When they felt the lack of air he pulled back, looking at her lips they were reddish purple, he licked his lips.
- ahh, Haneul...
She placed her hand over his lips.
- please don't say anything, is ok.
He pulled her into a hug, wrapping both arms around her.
- your smile is warm and inviting.
- all of you is warm and inviting.
She said with a smile.
- would you like my warmth then?
- every bit of it.
- great because I want yours too, I know you have been through a lot, I'll do my best, I will treat you like the gentleman I am, but remember that I have been through a lot as well, I have my moments so for that I ask forgiveness in advance.
- we will take it at the speed you want to go.
She placed her hands on his face bringing his face to her lips placing a kiss on his forehead.
- is late should I take you home?
- can I spend the night with you?
Namjoon's eyes widened.
- are you sure about that?
- well, the little one is with the grandparents, right?
- yes, she is.
- well, I don't have any problem with that if you don't, we are grown adults Namjoon, I mean you have a kid, I don't but I'm almost 30, I'm grown enough to know what I'm doing, I just want to spend the night with you no strings attached, just cuddle up, talk all night, I would like to feel what a real gentleman is.
Namjoon got struck with her words, is was the same thing the y/n had asked him that night.
- yes love, anything you want.
He leaned again to kiss her, Haneul threw her arms around his neck, he grabbed her thighs picking her up.
- do you want to sleep in little y/n's bed?
Haneul pulled back to look at him.
- what?
He couldn't help but to laugh at her facial expression.
- if you don't then you have to share my bed then.
- that sounds like a better idea.
- well I don't mind that.
He said walking to his room.
- come on jagi, do you want to change into something more comfortable?
- yes please.
He smiled putting her back down.
- I'll be right back then.
He grabbed a shirt out of his dresser handing it to her.
- thanks Joon, where is the bathroom?
- right behind that door.
She went to change her clothes, he did the same, his heart was racing like a car on a racetrack.
- am I moving too fast with her?
He thought while changing.
- I'm ready Joon.
- be right there.
She sat on the bed her back leaned against the headboard.
When he came out found her sitting on his bed, it has been quite a while since he had a woman in his bed, older than 5 years old that is, his body began to react at the sight.
- you look better on my shirt than I do.
He said with a smile plastered on his face.
- thanks, I hope you don't think that I'm an easy girl because of this, I'm just...
He walked up to her shushing her with a kiss.
- that thought never crossed my mind love.
She laid flat on the bed, he laid beside her pulling her to him.
- I wanna sleep warm in your arms.
- your every wish is my command darling.
He said finding her mouth again, her leg found place between his.
His hand traveled south landing on her round cheek squeezing it.
- oh Joon.
She let out a throaty moan.
- tell me if I'm moving too fast, I don't want to cross my boundaries with you, I don't want you to think that sex is all I want from you.
- those thoughts never crossed my mind.
She said burying her face in his neck, leaving butterfly kisses all over his neck, collarbone, under his earlobe.
- I think I should stop right here, I want to be a gentleman, I want to treat you like you deserve love, don't get me wrong that doesn't mean I don't want you, is the exact opposite.
- I know, I told you there is no pressure whatsoever.
He kissed her forehead pulling the blanket on top of them, she turned around her back now being against his chest.